girlofprey: (R for raygun)
At the moment, I'm playing the Nathan Drake Collection, which is all the Uncharted games remastered for the PS4. Uncharted 4 is coming out at the beginning of May, and everyone's excited for it, so I kind of want to catch up and be excited too, especially since Uncharted games tend to be quite narrative and movie-like, so I don't want to get spoiled. Anyway - also they are great games, and Nathan Drake is a great character, if a little odd. I just finished the second one, and there was a guy in it who was a baddy, and he just seemed so familiar to me. I thought it was just because he was British, and I spend much of my life in Britain. But then he had a slightly serious scene, and I realised. It's Alistair. It's Alistair from Dragon Age. Being a baddy. And in a game with Claudia Black (Aeryn Sun), who is also Morrigan from Dragon Age. It was a special moment. He died, obviously. But not before being probably the flirtiest baddy I've ever seen. He definitely wanted to fuck Nathan Drake. But anyway, he's dead now. Maybe. Enough weird shit happens in Uncharted games that you probably bring him back through fanfiction means.

Also I'm still playing Stardew Valley. I'm about to get to the beginning of my third year, which according to a weird shrine on my farm, is when my dead grandad will return. So. We'll see how that plays out.
girlofprey: (Batman Unicorn Rainbow)
Dragon Age: Inquisition )

DECEMBER. Deck the halls, and etc. I don't know what I want for Christmas - I don't think I particularly want anything. I bought pretty much every video game I wanted lately, and the others aren't out till after Christmas. But I can probably come up with some things if I put my mind to it.
girlofprey: (Blue Red Lips)
Just been to the local Proms event in a castle, like last year. It was really lovely, as before. We took my ON this year, and my dad decided he'd come - last year it was just me and mum - and I was a little worried my ON would just be bored and bugging us all the time. But he brought a friend and then met a bunch of his schoolfriends at the event, so he spent all his time running around a castle ruin on a summer's evening while classical music played. Not a bad way to spend time. We had a little picnic, and it was threatening rain all evening, but it held off for the most part. A weather forecast I saw yesterday said it'd be sunny where we are this morning, then some rain would start coming in from the west in the afternoon - and then Sunday would be THUNDERSTORMS. Kind of skipped out on Saturday evening. But it was sort of spitting on and off for most of the night, and only started raining properly during the last two songs. We had a bit of time to pack up our things and get our brollies out, and it didn't ruin the Firework Spectacular they like to end things with, which really was pretty Spectacular. So, result. It's a lovely night out for £6 each.

It's throwing it down now and I am exhausted. I'm also super-annoyed by the Dragon Age thing. Blather )

I'm so tired lately, and I can't tell if it's the heat, or light/curtain issues meaning I don't sleep, or the heat stopping me from properly sleeping, or anxiety build-up from some CBT stuff I'm doing at the moment. Or not writing suddenly keeping me up at night the way writing did when I first started to.

There's a festival in my town tomorrow, but I probably won't go to it. Tired.
girlofprey: (Heroes Sylar Go Swallow a Knife)
The best part about researching the ENTIRE WORLD of a game/show you like, as I am doing currently, is when you find out things that wildly change your entire outlook on the game. For me right now it's Dragon Age, and I just found out that it is literally canon that Alistair was 20 years old during the events of Origins. I had a feeling the characters were younger than I assumed they were, since Morrigan is voiced by Claudia Black, who is definitely not a teenager, but is constantly referred to as 'girl'. But wow. 20. Which sort of implies they aimed for the Warden to be younger than I was assuming, to be of a like age - and which s/he'll kind of have to be for a lot of her relationship with Alistair/Morrigan/etc to still make that same peer-to-peer sense. Huh. 20.

I also I found out about things like the Murder Knife. Which I'm pretty sure I have used a few times without realising it. Better get used to that being canon too.

Coronation Street )

The other week, when the volunteering dudes disappeared again, I went to see Belle because I figured it wouldn't be out at the cinema for much longer, and I could go see 3 Days To Kill - a spy action film starring Kevin Costner - another time. But now 3 Days To Kill has gone out of the cinemas while Belle was on for an extra week, lasjdkasljl.
girlofprey: (Spiderman 3 Anything sadder puppies)
Dragon Age: Origins spoilers )

In other news I still cannot with fandoms where people get SO het up about other people 'liking the bad guy', and self-congratulatory about arguing with people about it. I mean, some people like bad guys in terrible ways, but. What are you doing? What are you achieving? asjdaklsjdklj.

AND OF ALL THE FANDOMS TO GET HUNG UP ON MORALITY, BORDERLANDS? BORDERLANDS, REALLY?
girlofprey: (Iron Man Hammer Text)
I haven't done a proper Livejournal post in about a fortnight, it seems. Wow.

In real life, I have been mostly tidying my bedroom, finally. I got my service worker to come over and sit with me while I did it, despite mum's objections. Mostly it was just him sitting there while I sorted through stuff, and decided what to keep and what to throw away, which was probably not very fascinating for him. At one point he sat and counted how many DVDs I was throwing out. And we had an odd and involved conversation about William Roache. But it's nice to finally have it done, and to throw out things I don't want anymore, even though I hate doing that. Also I hoovered things that haven't seen a hoover in years, I don't think. All I have to do now is put up some of the pictures I've been keeping in a stack by the desk, go through some old soap mags and throw most of them away, and maybe decide what to do with the big stack of boxes I'm keeping by the bed. Basically I'm keeping them because if I decide to move again, which I probably will do at some point, I may as well move things in the boxes they came in and which fit them. That seems like the best course of action. But it only seems like maybe I could keep them in a better way than stacking them up beside the bed.

But anyway. Mostly it's just nice to have some space in my bedroom again, and a place for everything to live in.

And there's also been some trouble with my nephews. Cut for violence against children/bullying )

Fandom-wise I have mostly been obsessing over Justin Hammer from Iron Man 2, shipping George Gently and Bacchus from George Gently even though I don't quite know how, but I love Bacchus' hair and when he is protective, and obsessing a little bit over the Lego Movie. The Lego Movie.

That two-sided review I've been wanting to make, Spoilers )

I've recently discovered what actual fandom is like on Tumblr, and I don't think I like it, oh my God. Maybe it's just not for me, or maybe it's my own fault for getting into it with a fandom as odd as the Lego Movie, but. I have never seen so many people projecting so many of their issues onto fictional characters so intensely, and fighting with each other over it. Also it's filled with people who write in text too small to read and have music autoplaying whenever you open their Tumblrs. And people who wonder if it's morally wrong to sexualise children's toys in a children's movie in the first place. askdjajlad Tumblr.

Other than that I have mostly been researching medieval England for a fic I might write for Dragon Age, mostly as a way to procrastinate writing it I think, and then throwing the whole thing out anyway because Dragon Age itself can't seem to decide which historical period it's set in; they have magic so being specific about technology doesn't make much sense; they did bizarre things like having pumpkins growing in Ferelden even though it's meant to be faux-England and there is no faux-America that we know of; and Ferelden isn't even an island country, so looking up which plants are native doesn't even make that much sense anyway. Plus they just plain old made up some new plants like Deathroot and Elfroot anyway. Plus in the medieval period people were already sailing around moving plants and technology around anyway, so there's not much point being that rigid about it. It has been fun researching stuff, and it gave me some vague ideas, but eh. I think we'll count this one as a hodge-podge anyway.

I still do have complete my Origins replay with the different decisions I want to make, and the DLCs, and then a Dragon Age 2 replay (sigh) so I have the backstory I want for when Inquisition comes out though. Darn.

And the soaps are all kind of terrible at the moment, and have decided that killing young women off is totally the way to go and how to get ratings. So.

But on the plus side, it's March, so my self-imposed ban on Creme Eggs and easter sweets is over, and it'll be my birthday in about four weeks. Yippee. Also it's Pancake Day on Tuesday. THE MOST WONDERFUL DAY OF THE YEAR.
girlofprey: (Futurama Mauled By Jesus)
Oh my God, I forgot. I forgot that when you have a cold and then it gets better, it doesn't actually get better, it just moves further down your throat. I spent most of last night not being able to sleep or breathe. Technically I spent most of today not being able to sleep (or breathe) either. Ughhhhh....

I finished most of the Deep Roads main quest on Dragon Age: Origins today. Spoilers, sort of )

My appeal hearing is next week. A week tomorrow, in fact. I called an ESA assistance charity earlier this week to see if they had any tips for me, and they suggested trying to get medical evidence. I have no idea what medical evidence I can really get, since I hardly ever see my doctor about my OCD, even for a medical note, and my counselling wasn't through the NHS. I have called my counselling service, to see if my old counsellor would write me a letter, only to be told that the receptionist 'didn't know of anyone there by that name' (??), but that someone could write me a letter just generally on behalf of the service. They said that person would call me back on Tuesday, but they didn't, so I called again yesterday, and they told me that that person - the only one who apparently has the authority to write this letter - was training this week, but might be back tomorrow. If they do call tomorrow, I'm not entirely sure what to say. If they're not my counsellor and can't talk to her they won't know about my problems, specifically, and I don't know if she kept notes, she never mentioned it. And the charity people said it would be better if the medical evidence could specifically address the questions they ask in the ESA assessment, and whether I would be able to manage with those problems. Which seems like a complicated thing to have to write with no personal knowledge of me, before next Friday. But there we go. I can't think of anything else to do other than to ask my GP to give a general run-down of OCD. And the doctor on the panel ought to know enough about that.

Partly it's my own fault, I know, for leaving it this late. I guess I thought I'd have more time between getting the court date and having to attend it. But I had months before that, and I left it. The charity people did say that I could ask the Tribunal to adjourn until I had more medical evidence, if I didn't know I was supposed to have it, but they do ask you to get any medical evidence you need in the tribunal papers. And I don't know if I could go to the court next week not knowing whether we were actually going to have the Tribunal, or adjourn it. So I don't know. I don't know how much of an option that is. I guess it depends what response I get from the counselling service and/or my GP, and how long it would take to get evidence from them. The charity people also said that the government keeps changing the parameters for being eligible for benefits, so someone who got them last year might not get them this year. So. There's that.

Blah blah blah blah blah. I'm so tired. And so ill. :(

At least if I don't get ESA awarded to me next week, I have enough money in the bank and in an ISA to be able to cope for a few weeks while I decide what to do next, and what I want to do. I don't really want to have to go back at Jobseeker's. Particularly not if they really are making some people be slave labour. But I might have to.
girlofprey: (Fantasy Werewolf Vs Unicorn It's On)
I would like to say, though, that I am partly an emotional wreck over Dragon Age because I choose to play a female character.

Dragon Age: Origins spoilers )

And also, Coronation Street )

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I keep waking up every morning with a really bad sore throat, which then gets better throughout the day, and then is bad again when I wake up the next morning. All I can think is that I'm just a bit ill, and am not drinking fluids throughout the night so it gets worse, or my neck is getting cold at night. I don't know what to do if my neck is just getting cold. I am applying duvets the best I can, and the weather isn't looking to get any warmer. Uhh.

Also, I have recced fanmixes on here before, and this isn't going to turn into a fanmix rec journal. But I have been listening to these, and they are pretty awesome.

Fuck That Noise

Well Done, Tamika - A fanmix for Tamika Flynn from Welcome To Night Vale. Spoilers only really for her short mention on the show.
girlofprey: (Harry Potter Hogwarts Leukemia Won't Hel)
I want you all to know I'm an emotional wreck right now because of Dragon Age: Origins.

Fuck Dragon Age: Origins. Don't ever play that game.
girlofprey: (Watchmen VR Rorschach Talk Ozymandias)
Vera tonight )

Tonight's Coronation Street, tw for rape and rape culture )

Dragon Age: Origins spoilers I guess )

And can anyone tell me, if they shop at Play.com, if the Play.com search engine is working for them at the moment? I go to the site and put something in the search box and hit return, and it either does nothing, or just puts a little # in the url. It doesn't seem to be loading anything, so I don't know if I'm just not waiting long enough. But it's frustrating. And it'd be nice to know if it's a problem with the site or my computer.

I don't have enough detective icons. Is what I've worked out from this post.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
Dragon Age 2 is so dull. SO DULL. I am into Act 3 now, and I don't care, all the care I previously had went away. And all my companions are dicks, I literally hate asking them for help, and I know it's because game 2 is all about Politics and Fantastic Racism, but aksnldcmclndlanj. Where is the part where they say "You're right, Hawke. You're beautiful and amazing and ALWAYS RIGHT, I will stop being such a dick now"? WHERE IS THE PART WHERE I CAN CHANGE THEIR PERSONALITIES TO SUIT MY WHIMS, I'm PRETTY SURE I get that option in most RPGs nowadays. Is that the ending? Is a big party with cake and everyone realises the error of their ways? Are the errors of their ways still to come in the story, and THEN maybe they'll have a change of heart over it? Because I don't care. I no longer care. I hope most of them die. After they've finished helping me in fights and stuff. Pretty much the only companions I care about are Varric and Anders, but my relationship with Varric is going nowhere since all we ever discuss are the stories he tells about me (AND I CAN'T TELL HIM I LOVE HIM), and Anders is going weird. I'm pretty sure I mostly only love Anders because my PC from Dragon Age Origins recruited him, and she would LOVE HIM, no matter what he did. Barring a few things, obviously. Ugh. I hate Templars, but I'm pretty sure they're going to give me a reason to hate mages shortly. And every other quest is basically a fetch quest, where my basic reward is a bit of money and a 'tick' next to the quest in my journal.

It's fine. It's perfectly fine. I'm just really bored.

In other news, people are saying Livejournal is no longer sending comment notifications, is that true? It sucks if it is true. I'm assuming I will get a 'notification' on the home page, or my journal, if you comment on this post. If not things are going to get a lot more complicated around here.

I have also been watching Springwatch, this week and last week, as I attempt to do every year. I love Springwatch. And I love Michaela Strachan now she has calmed down and stopped trying to do cheesy jokes and wacky presenting all the time. I have to assume either the others told her to calm down, or she found a genuine love for nature, or - in a way that is sad but perhaps for the best - she witnessed one too many 'tragedies', like entire nests of cute chicks being eaten by weasels, and it soothed her manic soul. In any case, she's a lot better nowadays. And I seem to be detecting a frisson of sexual tension between her and Chris Packham on the show. If not, they're still really lovely with the way she makes him laugh despite himself all the time.

And while watching Springwatch, I saw the presenters make a few comments suggesting cuckoos were getting really rare in Britain nowadays. Which made me lucky, I suppose, since on Tuesday my mum and I took my ON to a local nature reserve, Fairburn Ings, and totally heard one in the woods. Result.

I also had to go see a woman from the Jobcentre on Wednesday. It was the Disability Advisor, and it was just a routine checking in type of thing, but it was a new woman because the previous woman retired, so I decided I should go in and meet her face-to-face, and I was a little bit anxious about it. But she turned out to be really nice, I explained everything I was doing and everything I wasn't doing, and a bunch of things I was waiting to hear about, and she suggested a new website I could look at for volunteering opportunities, and a new service I could go to for therapy once my current counselling is finished, and that was it. It all went pretty smoothly and she'll check in with me again in three months. Hurrah.

Also, you know what I don't understand? When you see the same actor over and over again in roles where they are meant to be not very attractive and kind of creepy, but they use actors that are obviously incredibly attractive in a slightly odd way. The main person I am thinking of is Harry Kershaw, who looks like this:

microsites.bournemouth.ac.uk - harry kershaw rufus stone
(from microsite.bournemouth.ac.uk)

See what I mean? I guess that's what they mean by "TV ugly". They mean not ugly. I feel like I want to follow Harry Kershaw's career, in the hopes of one day seeing him in a thing where they treat him as as attractive as he is. Apparently he was in Skyfall. As "Q's assistant", which was probably the most forgettable role ever. Still. Maybe it means he is moving into Hollywood, and will have massive success in the future. Tom Hiddleston managed.

Also I really hate the changes Youtube have made to their site. Just so everyone knows.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
Well, I haven't updated in over two weeks. Here's what has happened in my life:

I finished Dragon Age Origins again, the same day I posted about hopefully getting it finished soon. I still feel a little bit cheap about wanting a happier ending, or an angsty ending of a different sort, but it's what I wanted and it's what I did. Then I finished Awakening, mostly get frustrated because I kept expecting [spoiler] to appear even though he obviously wasn't going to. Then I played alllll the other DLCs, other than Darkspawn Chronicles, and I loved them. And my Player Character.

I went away for the weekend of Eurovision, to Jen's house. I saw Jen and Sarah and Clare and it was lovely. People voted for Denmark inexplicably, and didn't vote for Finland equally inexplicably, but overall the show was grand, and so was the weekend. On the train home I saw some sort of bird of prey, I think, and a fox. It was win.

Then I started Dragon Age 2, and I have spent most of the last week or so equally wanting to complain about it, and wanting to give it more of a chance, and also not wanting to bore people on my flist who don't know anything about it. I have given it a proper chance now, I think I'm some way into Act 2 - I will not properly know how long it is or how many acts it has until I've finished it - and I like it better than I did at the beginning, but still not as much as Origins. Although, it's always confusing, because I could never be sure if I loved Dragon Age Origins itself, or just Alistair. I REALLY LOVED ALISTAIR. But either way, nothing has inspired my massive love in the way that Dragon Age Origins did, and I have spent quite a lot of my time playing Dragon Age 2 wondering what Alistair and my PC are doing, and how THEY will react to the events of Dragon Age 2. It is not my most stunning recommendation for a game. But I am genuinely enjoying it for itself now.

Further details and complaints, incl SPOILERS )

So. That is Dragon Age 2. And most of my thoughts on it. Other than that I fannishly mostly been watching Community, up to series 3.

Things that were unexpectedly hot )

I haven't finished series 3 though, so no spoilers ok?

I HAVEN'T BEEN WATCHING ANYTHING ELSE. Really. Maybe some Rules Of Engagement.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I was going to make a post last night about how I had my period, but it was the kind of period where you didn't feel the pain very often but you just felt sort of lightheaded and tired all the time, which kind of sucked. Then the pain hit, and I couldn't write anything. Well, I might have been able to keysmash, but there wouldn't have been the fine detail in it that I wanted in my point. So I have my period. And I'm planning to spend most of today in my pyjamas and a blanket. However, I'm going away on Friday, so I'd rather get it now than, say, Friday. Well done body.

In fannish terms I am still trying to get Dragon Age Origins finished again so I have a better save to import. It's slightly annoying because I'm really ready to start on one of the post-game DLCs or Dragon Age 2, but I'm really not looking forward to the end boss fight again. Or all the many boss fights between here and the end. But still. Progress is being made. I also watched an entire Let's Play of Silent Hill Homecoming, and I'm doing actually super well about not just explaining how terrible and tragic Alex Shepherd's life is all the time. Literally all the time. You can thank me whenever. Unfortunately Alex Shepherd's life is also incredibly depressing, so I can't really dwell on it too much, without having to then immediately think about something happier. Alistair from Dragon Age is almost always a fairly sunny distraction though, so I've somewhat lucked out. What I'm essentially trying to say is that in both my video game loves of the moment, there's a bit of a push-pull scenario going on.

Also, did anyone watch The Fall on Monday night? It's a serial drama about a serial killer, which is pretty gruesome, and it stars Gillian Anderson, which is pretty great. But it also seems to be a reunion of every Irish character that was ever on Hollyoaks. Brendan Brady, Cheryl Brady, and I'm pretty sure Lynsey are all there. Also an Irish nurse from Holby City. It's set in Belfast so I guess they're gathering every Irish actor they can muster. Also it is genuinely pretty good. But I am kind of puzzled that they had Brendan Brady, and didn't use him as the detective who puts his coat on at a crime scene, and Gillian Anderson is so enthralled she stops a car and wanders into said crime scene insisting on being introduced. I mean, the detective who did that is fine. But if you wanted people to understand instant magic I don't know why you wouldn't use Brendan Brady. Maybe he has more to do in future episodes. Hmm.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
And today in Dragon Age: Origins...Spoilers )

And tonight on Coronation Street, David was ill and fell over, and his older brother had to rush to his side and help him and tend to him. I did wonder if they'd mention his epilepsy ever again. And now they have. Sally should really be more careful about talking about Kylie and Nick's secret though, since if it gets out, David will kill everyone. Everyone on the street. Honestly Sally, do you not love your street at all? Or daughter? Or self? Tut.

I have heard weird things about the Tina pregnancy storyline coming up, but mainly I just think Tina, Gary and David should just go live together with the baby, and possibly Kylie and Nick's baby as well (it is probably Kylie and Nick's baby), after David terrifies everyone with his scary eyes into just letting him look after it. A happy OT3 is all I'm looking for. With Tommy involved as little as possible just because I think he's boring. I cannot guarantee their kid/s would be the most well-adjusted who ever lived. But they would be the best protected. And with the best three parents. And David would never have to worry about being left alone with the kids, because there would probably always be at least one of the other two around to help out. EVERYBODY WINS.
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