girlofprey

The weather is suddenly bipolar, and I'm not sure I like it. Mostly I'm just hoping it will be okay on Friday, when I will travelling around. And Monday, when I'll be travelling around again. And next Friday, when I will be going out to volunteer all day.

In other news, I'm pretty sure I'm due a period, and if it starts the day I go away - again - I'm going to be incredibly annoyed.

I finished Bioshock! And got a new pairing. And it went slightly weird at the end, but it's still good. And I found out that the first page of the Bioshock kinkmeme was started before the second game (which doesn't have the same main characters) came out, haha, so I could read it. And there is plenty of fic on there. And plenty for my pairing. The only problem is that now I have caught up to when the second game was released, and I keep seeing sort of spoilers, but I am super used to getting fic for my pairing now, and I know there's more on there in amongst the second game spoilers. So. I should really stop. But I haven't yet. Or, I should start the new game. But I'm still kind of reeling from the first game, and I'm about to go away for the weekend, so it's probably not the best time to try to get into a new game. Hmm.

My other main fandom at the moment is ( Dallas! Mentions of rape and domestic abuse )

Also, I saw an episode of NCIS the other day. I still hate Gibbs and DiNozzo. Which makes it kind of hard to watch NCIS. It's like the Poltergeist: The Legacy of it's day.

I have to go for a bus in about 15 minutes, so I must be brief, but:

On Sunday I watched the last episode in this series of George Gently, which was aslkdfsd. I wish there were other George Gently fans on my flist. Maybe I should go and find some. At the moment the main person I have to discuss TV with is my mum, and her way of doing so is to look at me politely until I stop. Then I watched the episode of Poltergeist: The Legacy where Nick investigates and gets kidnapped by his former Navy SEALs commander. I was worried it wasn't going to be as good as I remembered, or wasn't going to be as slashy, but no. Gay as anything. It all seemed a bit rushed though. Like, they had to fit Nick's past with the guy, the guy's supernatural thing, and his attempts to get Nick to join him into one episode. I can't tell though if I only feel that way because I could have happily watched 2 or 3 episodes of Nick being tied up in a cave with his former commander who loves him. Or 24 episodes. Whatever.

Season 2 of PTL is weird. They've made Derek make more sense, but because he makes more sense I just hate him more when he's a jerk. And the CONSTANT ROMANTIC INTERESTS, I can't believe them. And then they try to make me care about him and I don't, and it's just irritating. Philip doesn't trouble us as much though. And the stories - when they aren't about Derek - are often a lot tighter and more interesting, and the main cast sort of make fun of each other and love each other more. So it's odd. I can see why I loved it, but I can also see why maybe I didn't watch Seasons 3 and 4. Although I'm pretty sure I stopped watching them because there was a rumour one of the main cast would die in Season 3, and I was so afraid it might be Nick that I sort of cut myself off emotionally from it. Because that's how I roll/ed, with emotional over-investment.

Also last night I watched all the soaps, although not all of Emmerdale.

( Emmerdale )

( Eastenders )

( Coronation Street )

Hello. I just got back from a weekend at Jen's. IT'S SO WARM. And I had to take a bunch of trains and then walk back from our local station with a backpack. But anyway. I had a lovely weekend. We went to see a fireworks Spectacular, and we watched Franklin and Bash (which is lovely), Common Law (which is amazing) and Poltergeist: The Legacy (Nick!). I broke some things and accidentally acted like a burglar, but Jen was very good about it. Also I made PLANTS TO FLOWER. Probably. I ignored Doctor Who. Jennifer helped. It was lovely.

Other than that, I am mostly worried about the upcoming week/end. I got a letter before I went away saying that the DWP want me to come in for another assessment, and instead of it being in October like I figured it would be, it's next Monday. So this week I have a counselling appointment, an appointment with my Employment Coach, then it's my sister's birthday on Sunday, and it looks like we'll be taking her out for a family lunch which I previously said I'd be okay with, and then I have a DWP assessment on Monday. And then another counselling appointment next Tuesday. But I figure I'll probably find that useful, after the assessment at the very least. So yeah. Joy.

Also it's September. Aaahh.

ETA: ( Cut for Frankie Boyle and ableism re: The Paralympics )

Still lots and lots of moving. Not for me though, I stayed home and played Fallout 3. Which by the way, got depressing as fuck. And then more depressing as fuck. Poor Player Character. Still, I did manage to find a friend for her. Then they died. I went "lol, no" and reloaded a save.

I also have thoughts about Poltergeist: The Legacy, but they're probably not going to mean much to anyone if they haven't seen the show. Essentially, it's that I'm pretty sure half the programme is terrible because they have two characters (of five) that basically just look perturbed about things and angst and shout ineffectually. And weirdly, they're the two that have accents. I think maybe they were trying to go for 'mysterious and troubled' and ended up with 'pretentious and a bit rubbish'. On the other hand, it explains why even though I loved Nick and sort of slashed people at the age I was when I watched it, I never had a pairing for him. Because the two main options for it were both terrible. Only two of the characters (including Nick) really act like human beings. And the other one is pretty good, but they haven't really done a lot with her, five episodes in. She is the only black character. In some sad ways I'm not suprised.

My main complaint about Poltergeist: The Legacy though is that I'm pretty sure that after watching Season 1, I'm going to want to watch Season 2. I remember loving it a lot more, and it has some of the best episodes for my favourite character. Sadly, the only place you can legally get Season 2 at the moment is On Demand from Amazon.com, in America - where because it's On Demand, it costs sixty dollars. Which is about £40, plus shipping. And because it's On Demand, you can't really get it second hand or from anywhere else a bit cheaper. And my skills at getting TV from other sources are a bit rusty at the moment. Hmph.

I have to wait till mum gets home from my sister's before we can have dinner, because she's going to McDonald's and bringing it back with her. She called about an hour ago, and didn't say when she'd be home, and hasn't turned up yet. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.

So. I've had an interesting few days. After all my appointments last week I was tired, and going out to the cinema over the weekend appeared to have pushed me too hard, because I was still exhausted on Monday night, and stressing out over a personal statement for a job application that I hadn't edited. I was supposed to be meeting my employment coach on Tuesday after my jewellery course and before my counselling session. But I just felt so tired I didn't feel like I could go out at all on physically exhausted that I really didn't feel like I could go out at all on Tuesday. So I decided not to and just cancelled all my appointments. It was alright though, I emailed my employment coach and explained, and she said it was fine, and that the basic personal statement I'd already written before would probably do for the job application, so she filled it out and sent it off for me (with my permission), which I thought was still better than not applying at all. It's the type of work I've done before and local and the kind of hours I'm looking for, so it seemed like a shame not to. And my counseller ('s colleagues) actually called ME on Tuesday morning to say she was ill so wouldn't be able to make it to our appointment. And the jewellery course people didn't seem to have a problem. So it was all fine.

It did feel a little weird, but I do sort of feel like putting a stop to it and just not going out was a lot better than forcing myself to go, which is the type of thing I might have done before. And I went out to my Confidence Course today, and am planning to go to all my appointments as usual next week. Also, having thought about it and had some other 'symptoms', I've realised it's probably about four or six weeks since my last period, so my hormones probably have something to do with it. As well as going out to slightly too many things. Hmph. But anyway. I'm hoping to be back on track for next week.

In Saints Row 2 news, [spoiler] is still [spoiler]. Even if [spoiler] does still [spoiler] sometimes. I still love all my cars. And am not entirely willing to give any of them up to get new unlockable ones. Except that there are some that I am probably just never going to look at or use, so I probably will at some point. And people are still picking on me when I wear the same clothes too many days in a row. Or a particular piece of clothing one too many times. When I have sometimes spent HALF AN HOUR or something making that piece of clothing, and have to then try to make it again or throw it out. Hmph. I still kind of love it though. Even if I sort of feel like loading a save from before the end of the game, and having the story go on FOREVER. I have won slightly too many really really hard minigames and done too many things to my cars and clothes to actually do that though.

And in Skyrim, I appear to be weirdly close to finishing the main quest. I sort of had an idea, from the name of bits of the quest and some of the content, but still. I have no idea how long I have devoted to the actual main quest, but it still seems weirdly quick compared to some of the other Elder Scrolls games. I mean, when I played Morrowind - the graphics and character interactions were nowhere near as good as they are in Skyrim, and I did do a weird thing of abandoning it because I was scared of getting killed, and then finding a walkthrough and a cheat to turn on God Mode - but I still remember the main quest going on for ages, and being really really brilliant and detailed. And if the Skyrim quest ends here then it's really nowhere near the same amount of content, from what I can remember. Maybe I'm wrong though. Maybe there will be a twist and there will be more to it, and more stuff after it. We'll see. I'm almost all the way through my backlog of quests, and going through some incredibly creepy Daedric quests at the moment. Also, ( Vague non-spoiler ). Hmph.

In other news...blargh. I have been watching Whitechapel. I love Whitechapel. AND I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW ANYONE COULD SHIP CHANDLER/KENT WHEN CHANDLER/MILES IS RIGHT THERE, RIGHT THERE. But whatever. And I have been on Tumblr. I have many issues with Tumblr, and I have just had to Unfollow a girl who was kind of angry and oversharey and reblogged upsetting things a lot, even though I found her blog quite funny and it introduced me to a bunch of fandoms/memes I'd never heard of. Which was kind of a shame. But mostly Tumblr provides me with daily pictures of wolves, and doodly art, and cakes. Which is lovely. Also you sometimes get links to things, like Two Best Friends Play, who even though I've never played Assassin's Creed, still sort of kill me. Not as much as 666theheartless666 though. Beautiful 666theheartless666 (easier to type than to say), who came back recently, HURRAH.

Although sadly Tumblr is full of Sherlock, and I still mostly hate Sherlock, except that I never actually got round (so far) to watching the second series, so that I don't even feel able to judge Sherlock properly. MAYBE SERIES TWO WAS REALLY GOOD AND THEIR LOVE WAS TRUE. I just don't know.

Blah. I'm probably going to watch Poltergeist: The Legacy series 1 at some point, because I have the DVDs, and because Nick. I DON'T KNOW. Maybe.

Also, I keep forgetting, but I did finally get sent a date for my ESA hearing. It's at the end of April. So that's coming up. Great.