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Interview went alright, also. It was a little weird. I was being interviewed by the CEOs and founders of the company, in the building where I would be working, but I wasn't going to work for the company in that building, I would be working for a company that provides various services for other businesses, including reception work. But it went okay. I looked alright, although my feet were killing me - I have two separate blisters on my little toe. I'm never wearing those shoes again. But anyway, I made it there. They just didn't really ask me any questions, or not interview-type questions at any rate. Because they're such a customer-focused business, and it's all about giving them a good service, all they really did was ask a bit about my work history - and my depression came up, because it's hard to explain a five-year gap in your job history, but they were fine about it and said it didn't put them off - and then they just basically explained my (minimal) duties, greeting people, handing out temporary passes, keeping an eye on the car park, and asked me 'would you be alright with that?'. I said yes to everything, tried to provide examples of when I'd done similar things in the past. I felt like I was floundering a little with a couple of answers, purely because I got a little tongue-tied, but I wouldn't say it went badly at all. To be honest, the way the interview went, I think I'm more likely to lose out to someone else who lives in Leeds, where the company's based, than anything, because someone like that could provide cover at a moment's notice, whereas I'd have to get a train. But we'll see. They said they'd seen a lot of people today, but that they'd let me know one way or another by the 'end of play' tomorrow. So. It's experience in odd interviews, at least.

Hello.

Things That Have Happened:

I had a birthday. And I partied like it was my birthday. It was an odd day, sort of. It started off with my sister (who I'm not talking to) calling me up at 11am, while I was in bed but not asleep, to wish me a happy birthday, and let my MN wish me a happy birthday. She started talking very excitedly about what I was doing later, and she didn't know what our/our mum's plans were. Also she kept asking me if I was okay, because I sounded a bit 'down' and quiet. My non-verbal signs that I didn't want to talk to her apparently weren't working. Anyway, she also apparently asked my mum what was happening that day, whether we were all going round to hers for cake as usual. Which is what I TOTALLY THOUGHT SHE WOULD DO. But we worked it out, basically, we've just made some plans that didn't involve going to see her. It still feels mean, but I just really don't want to see her, or deal with her on my birthday. Anyway. As it was nice weather, I went out to our local town gardens, then met my mum and ON out of school and we went to a local tearoom for some cake. Then I went for my counselling in Wakefield, and when I came out I went and met up with mum, dad and my ON at the Pizza Hut in Wakefield and we had dinner. Yesterday my MN came over as usual, and we had my birthday cake and candles and stuff, and sent most of the cake back to their house. So he didn't feel left out either.

And the birthday celebrations are sort of still going on. I expressed a wish to go to Cannon Hall Farm, as it is spring and they tend to have lots of baby animals, unlike our local farm shops. So we're doing that tomorrow. And then mum said we can go out for dinner on Sunday, which is also partly because it's Easter next week and I will be in London. It's really nice all of it. My only concern is that it's a little bit full-on, doing all these things, given that I've still got a bunch of appointments next week and then a trip to London to gear up for. But I'm pacing myself and I'm having quite a few days off, so I'll probably be fine.

I also got my feedback from last Friday's interview on Monday. It's a bit confusing really, because the woman said she could only find one HR form for me - making it sound like there should have been more - and she said there were eight questions in the interview, when I'm pretty sure there were nine. There were three people and they had three questions each. But whatever. In any case it was weird, because the questions I thought I'd done worst on were the questions I'd done the best on, and the questions I thought I'd done better on, I did worse on. She told me the marks I got out of ten for each question, and the first three, where I really felt like I was babbling and not saying much of relevance in, I got 8s and 7s for, while the rest were all 4s and 5s. But anyway. It suggests what I need to work on, in any case. I also called my Employment Coach, and told her about the feedback, and she sort of agreed with me that the fact they weren't giving me any sort of feedback, or asking me to expand on any answers - especially when I was only getting 4s and 5s - was a bit weird, and maybe they weren't exactly the best at interviewing either. But anyway. It's nice to know it wasn't a complete disaster, and like I say, I've got things to think about and work on for next time, at least.

Other things that have happened, in the week when I had the interview, included my finally finishing two games, The Darkness and Wet. It was sort of funny really, I'd not played either of them for about three months while playing Saints Row 2 and Skyrim, and had studiously avoided looking anything about them up in case of spoilers, and then when I actually started playing them again it only took me a few days to a week each to finish them. Oh well. None of you probably know what either of those games are. Suffice it to say that the ending of The Darkness was weirdly left hanging in a way I didn't expect, and then when I looked it up I was suprised to find out that The Darkness is actually a comic book series from 1996, and only got recently made into a game. Which possibly explains the unfinished feeling of the first game. And I'm quite looking forward to playing the game's sequel, which came out last month, and which I'm hoping is as good as the first one. And I love Wet. And Rubi Malone. Nobody ships her with the man I ship her with (except possibly one person who made a video). But it's still brilliant. And maybe I can look up posts about 'Wet' a bit more safely now that Tumblr has apparently got rid of a lot of it's porn.

Speaking of which, I still haven't heard back about either my complaint to ITV about that victim-blaming Loose Women thing, or the complaint I sent to Tumblr about the dumbthingswhitepplsay thing. I wonder if I ever will. I have no idea what the general timescale for replying to complaints is.

The only thing I'm really watching at the moment is Coronation Street. They seem to have mysteriously ended the Carla storyline by not looking at or having any scenes with Carla, which is...odd. But it's sort of miles better at the moment because they're letting David be onscreen again, and letting him shout at and try in a messed-up way to protect people again. Even though the argument he had with Audrey last night seemed a bit weird. I did pause right in the middle of it to listen to something mum was saying in the kitchen, but it didn't seemed to end with Audrey saying things she would never say. In my opinion. Anyway. It's a shame that I only really believe in Kylie when she's being a nasty, money-grabbing cow, but that the only reason I can see for her getting involved in the storyline too. Because she doesn't really seem to care that much for Audrey. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe she has good, beautiful reasons for being involved.

So. My main job at the moment is too remember not to spend all my money before next weekend. Which is a little unfortunate, because Black March is ending tomorrow, and there are things that I've been sort of putting off buying. But I still need to pay my half of the hotel room, and it's the convention I go to that doesn't involve food in the room price, so I'll have to have some money put away for that too. I do at least have my tickets all booked and sorted though. And I do have a bit of birthday money at the moment, and I should be getting another ESA payment on Wednesday, so I should be alright. As long as I remember not to spend about £400 in the next week or so. I really shouldn't do that. I am planning on getting another secondhand console at some point though - it turns out that CEX (which I totally love) really does sell PS2s, and at a pretty good price. Just not in the next few days.

Hello. It's me. A few weeks ago I decided, since my computer didn't seem to be having the disk space issues it had been doing and I had a new external hard drive to clear space with anyway, to see if I could install an old game of mine, Morrowind, again. It turned out that I could, aside from some problems with the computer not recognising the game disk some of the time. But anyway, I've mostly been playing that rather than posting for the past few weeks. God I love Morrowind. I'm not exactly a big gamer, but it's probably my favourite game I ever had. And one of my favourite fantasy stories ever. But anyway.

I have been doing stuff though. I went to see the Snow Queen in London a few weeks ago, and stayed the weekend with cakesy. ( The Snow Queen, and staying with cakesy )

I also had two interviews. ( The interviews )

( The flat things )

Anyway. In other news:

• While I was at my parents' I picked up a belated Christmas present that wasn't delivered in time in December, the Wolf Almanac. And promptly spent most of my time at my parents' reading about wolves. I would be tormenting you all with Wolf Facts and discussing Erroneous Assumptions About Wolves somewhat endlessly, but I'm mostly a better friend than that.


• I saw a part of an episode of Veronica Mars while I was at my parents', and am currently going through one of my regular bouts of rage about the lack of Aaron/Logan on the internet. Dudes. It was incestuous, abusive, AND Aaron was a ( Spoiler for season 1 )
  . How could it not have taken off??


• I saw a beautiful hat in the sale in Accessorise last week, on the very day that I really properly did not have enough money to buy it with. It was a black trilby with two of those scrunched-up felt flowers attached to the side, a pink one and a grey one. It was beautiful, sort of Gangster-Feminine, but the next day, when I had slightly more money, it had gone. At the moment I'm vaguely planning to make one. If I can find the right bits in a haberdasher's.

Another thing I've been thinking - while I do feel like any money I get from now on should really at least partly go towards paying back what I've borrowed from my savings to pay for my rent and stuff lately - on the other hand, when I get the £200-ish deposit back from my flat (assuming I do move out at the end of February and they don't feel the need to buy new furnishing with it or keep it for some reason), it would probably pay pretty much for me to go to Eastercon. Assuming there are still places and I can find someone to share with. Hmm. It's a thought, anyway.