girlofprey

I just don't have time for anything anymore.

I get up, and I usually have a few hours to myself in the morning. I have found that playing video games in the morning, when you are fresh and haven't been worrying about other things and are ready for adventure, is the best time to play video games, but even then three days out of the week I have less time for it because I need to have a shower and wash my hair. Then I go to work, and I essentially leave the house at 12 and don't get back till 8 - so, 8 hours. And that's when, so far, my trains have almost always worked out. By the time I get in my mum's usually timed dinner for then, but even by the time I've eaten and gotten changed it's like 9 o'clock, and then it's like "right, I have three hours to do EVERYTHING." Which is, all of the stuff I used to spend all day doing, and then anything else that's new that I actually need to do. And then, even though I don't always stick to the 12 o'clock bedtime, I really need to go to bed, so I can be up ready for work the next day, and not sleep in, and have time for a shower if I need one, and have time to play video games. And that is my day.

What I have been doing is reading comic books/graphic novels, and I have to say that it's as expensive as I thought it would be, and that DC is better than Marvel by a mile. I can't even believe it. The way people talk, I always assumed actual Marvel COMICS were the fun, light-hearted ones, but I read two and they were so full of angst and self-obsessed characters and CONSTANT WISE-CRACKING, THE WISE-CRACKING, I CAN'T TAKE IT. And then I read a Batman and Robin book - which was mostly about Dick Grayson and Jason Todd and all the other Robins - and it had an actual plot and a bad guy and they went after the bad guy and things happened and it was amazing. I super recommend it, by the way, it was Batman and Robin Eternal, but it's in 2 volumes and each of them cost about £30. I'm super into Dick Grayson though. All those Tumblr posts about him were not wrong. And also Jason Todd and Harper Row and Cassandra Cain, and I suspected I would like Midnighter, and then he turned up and he was great.

I went into town early today to get some new work trousers before my kickboxing class, and the way there my bus blew a tire, and then when I was in Marks and Spencers a woman knocked over a whole display stand and there was broken glass all over the floor, and it was like I was just surrounded by calamities. I did get an awesome hat and saw some donkeys though.

I kind of wanted to mention the other day, when the silent news in front of me was just epic and amazing and awful all day. The head of Intelligence in America quit, and UKIP have probably misused EU FUNDING, and Hillary Clinton spoke at a charity event and her hair looked sad and it was awful. The nihilistic part of me that just hates the UK and the whole world for all the choices it's making sort of enjoyed it (except for the Hillary Clinton part, her hair was genuinely emotional), sort of enjoys watching things burn, but also, omg. Wow.

( Benefits stuff, irritating )

Anyway, maybe the people will call tomorrow and say it's all been a big misunderstanding, and I can have my payments after all. But I've called and made an appointment with my doctor anyway, just in case. Although that's annoying in itself, because this week I was supposed to have three appointments, an application forms workshop yesterday, a counselling session tomorrow, and an appointment with my employment coach on Friday. And it felt like a bit much after the meeting with my case manager last Friday and then going to Nottingham for Batman Live (I did that, by the way) on Saturday, so I was wishing for a bit less to do this week. But then yesterday my employment coach came and asked me if we could rearrange our Friday appointment for next Monday, because she had a client she suddenly needed to see on Friday. And my counsellor just called today to say she couldn't make our appointment tomorrow any more, could we make it next Wednesday. And when I called the doctors, the soonest I could get an appointment with the doctor who gave me my last sick note was Tuesday morning at 8:30, and no later in the day, or Wednesday at 9:40. So now next week I have an appointment on Monday, and a doctor's appointment at 9:40 am and then a counselling session at 2:00 on Wednesday. Sigh.

But anyway. At least I have the rest of the week free, even though I was sort of geared up for the appointment tomorrow. And I have slightly less on next week than I was supposed to this week. And if those guys call and say 'big misunderstanding' (who knows?), I can just cancel my doctor's appointment. Although I'm not exactly holding out too much hope for that.

But, some good things: I was at Aldi buying chocolate on Sunday, as is my custom, and I discovered they're now selling cherry and chili dark chocolate. Which is lovely, although it's still not a good idea to eat too much chili dark chocolate all at once. I did go to Batman Live, as I said, and it was quite good, although probably not brilliant enough for the amount I ended up paying to see it. ( Sort of spoilers )

Another weird thing, if not a good thing, is that for some reason I feel about three months ahead of myself at the moment. When I came back from Prague, in June, I really really felt like summer was over, and I was ready for like autumn and Halloween and stuff. And now the sky has gone a bit grey, and it's gotten a bit colder, I'm feeling suddenly ready for Christmas. I don't actually feel ready for Christmas, I'd definitely like to have Halloween and Bonfire Night first. But it sort of feels like that sort of atmosphere. I really like this time of year, at any rate though. The shops have started putting scarves and gloves out, and it recently occured to me it would soon be the weather to have soup regularly again, and start getting wrapped up before I go out. Hurrah :)

In soap news, ( Vague discussion of a domestic rape storyline )

But in happier news, a while back I came up with and did a picspam on the Doug/Texas/Leanne OT3 I really wanted Hollyoaks to do. And I never really expected it to actually happen. But Texas and Leanne were looking for somewhere to live together for their second year of uni, and yesterday we had a scene of Doug throwing out his current roommate, and then Texas and Leanne walked down the stairs saying they'd had a look around, and were happy to move in straight away! Hollyoaks, you DO know how to make me happy. Hurrah.

[Poll #1229577]

Just a quick one:

( Batman: The Dark Knight )

And now I'm going to see it again. Look, there were scheduling and ticket booking issues. Don't judge me. See you in a bit!