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Nov. 11th, 2012 10:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
girlofpreySo, I got my form in on Friday. In the end I thought better of what I'd written on Thursday night, since they really do give you only a little bit of space, and I'd spent about a paragraph saying "I just got judged not fit to work 6 months ago and nothing's changed, what the hell?". So I ended up going into my local Jobcentre and getting a new form and filling it out again. I'm not sure I said a lot more than I did on the first one, but I said a few extra things, and it turned out to be for the best. Because when I went in to get the form, I asked whether I needed to send it back in to them or to the sort of Head Office, even though I pretty much knew it was the Head Office, hoping they'd give me some sort of freepost envelope. And they told me to just bring it back in to them and they'd send it where it needed to go.
And when I brought it back in, they date-stamped it to say it'd been received, so I don't have to worry about it not getting to the Head Office by the deadline (Monday). And they also asked me if I'd specifically said I wanted to be paid while the appeal was being held, because apparently if you don't say that they don't bother to pay you. And I hadn't. I don't remember saying that last year and they paid me anyway, but the women on the desk seemed to think you'd definitely need to do it. So, in any case, now I have done it, because of them. They were nice ladies. Of course, now I'm worrying that if I've specifically said I want to be paid, maybe they have more of a legal standing for asking for it all back if I lose the appeal. And just because I've said I want to be paid doesn't necessarily mean I will be. But there's not much point worrying about that until they make a decision, and I am going to actually get in contact with an organisation to help with ESA appeals this time, like the CAB or Dial, rather than just basically making stuff up and then worrying about it. But anyway, at least the form is done and in.
I've been feeling really wiped out and weird over the past few days, and I don't know if it's because of the stress over the appeal, being on my period, or what. I'm feeling in a sort of a fannish limbo as well, because all my shows - or my show, rather - has finished, and obviously Bioshock fandom ended up being a bit of a letdown, after putting off reading half of it for a bit. I'm still feeling weirdly dissatisfied with Bioshock, anyway, and Dishonored, and I can't tell if it's because I genuinely found their endings sort of empty, or because I want to play through again as a baddy to get the other endings, and feel like I'm really done with the canon. Hmm. I'm not playing either. I'm playing Portal 2. GLaDOS is mean.
What I really feel like doing is watching all of old Dallas. I'm not entirely convinced I would be able to do that, however, or to do it in a timely fashion.
Also, it's pre-Christmas, and my mum has started asking me what I want already. And I have genuinely no idea, nor is anything coming to me. Which is a little weird. Last year I just had 3 things I wanted, but I genuinely wanted them, you know? Although last year was pretty easy, because Skyrim was coming out. But this year, nothing really. I mean, there's things I want, but I don't know how mum or dad would react to me being all "Get me 2 cushions from Jon Burgerman". The only thing I can think of is an XBox, just because it's a big thing, but I only really want that so I can play a couple of XBox exclusive games, and possibly some other XBox exclusive games in the future, but I could get those for the PC most of the time. And we'd need to find somewhere to put it. I still haven't plugged in or tested out the Playstation 2 I bought a few months ago. Hmph. Well, I'm sure something will come to me.
I've got my first counselling appointment with my new counsellor tomorrow, which I'm hoping will do something for my mental state, and coping with the appeal and all. Or in the next few weeks, anyway, after we've settled in. I hope I get along with her, as well as I did with my old counsellor. Fingers crossed.
And when I brought it back in, they date-stamped it to say it'd been received, so I don't have to worry about it not getting to the Head Office by the deadline (Monday). And they also asked me if I'd specifically said I wanted to be paid while the appeal was being held, because apparently if you don't say that they don't bother to pay you. And I hadn't. I don't remember saying that last year and they paid me anyway, but the women on the desk seemed to think you'd definitely need to do it. So, in any case, now I have done it, because of them. They were nice ladies. Of course, now I'm worrying that if I've specifically said I want to be paid, maybe they have more of a legal standing for asking for it all back if I lose the appeal. And just because I've said I want to be paid doesn't necessarily mean I will be. But there's not much point worrying about that until they make a decision, and I am going to actually get in contact with an organisation to help with ESA appeals this time, like the CAB or Dial, rather than just basically making stuff up and then worrying about it. But anyway, at least the form is done and in.
I've been feeling really wiped out and weird over the past few days, and I don't know if it's because of the stress over the appeal, being on my period, or what. I'm feeling in a sort of a fannish limbo as well, because all my shows - or my show, rather - has finished, and obviously Bioshock fandom ended up being a bit of a letdown, after putting off reading half of it for a bit. I'm still feeling weirdly dissatisfied with Bioshock, anyway, and Dishonored, and I can't tell if it's because I genuinely found their endings sort of empty, or because I want to play through again as a baddy to get the other endings, and feel like I'm really done with the canon. Hmm. I'm not playing either. I'm playing Portal 2. GLaDOS is mean.
What I really feel like doing is watching all of old Dallas. I'm not entirely convinced I would be able to do that, however, or to do it in a timely fashion.
Also, it's pre-Christmas, and my mum has started asking me what I want already. And I have genuinely no idea, nor is anything coming to me. Which is a little weird. Last year I just had 3 things I wanted, but I genuinely wanted them, you know? Although last year was pretty easy, because Skyrim was coming out. But this year, nothing really. I mean, there's things I want, but I don't know how mum or dad would react to me being all "Get me 2 cushions from Jon Burgerman". The only thing I can think of is an XBox, just because it's a big thing, but I only really want that so I can play a couple of XBox exclusive games, and possibly some other XBox exclusive games in the future, but I could get those for the PC most of the time. And we'd need to find somewhere to put it. I still haven't plugged in or tested out the Playstation 2 I bought a few months ago. Hmph. Well, I'm sure something will come to me.
I've got my first counselling appointment with my new counsellor tomorrow, which I'm hoping will do something for my mental state, and coping with the appeal and all. Or in the next few weeks, anyway, after we've settled in. I hope I get along with her, as well as I did with my old counsellor. Fingers crossed.
