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It's also really difficult for me to not just plan this entire two weeks off in terms of video games. Red Dead Redemption 2 is coming out on Friday, and it feels like the whole world is waiting for it, and I haven't even played the first one but I'm still anticipating it, just to see if it's as good as everyone hopes it'll be. I'm playing two other games at the moment that I probably won't finish before then - maybe one of them, but the other is Assassin's Creed Odyssey, and I'm about 30 hours in and feel like I've just scratched the surface. There's a new Spider-Man post-game story out today. It's Halloween next week, which I keep forgetting, and Call of Cthulhu is a game I've been following for a while and is out next Tuesday - and I do kind of believe in playing scary games at Halloween. But it'd mean tearing myself away from Red Dead Redemption, and then not finishing it probably so I could go back to Red Dead Redemption. There's also a Destiny 2 'event' going on for Halloween, and it's the first time I've even vaguely been involved in Destiny while that was happening, so I kind of feel like jumping into that. And then also there's Far Cry 5 - I almost always feel like playing some more Far Cry 5, or starting a new playthrough, but the game is set in October (which is all thematic because the cult believes the end of the world is near), and there are pumpkin patches scattered around, so it would feel quite apt. And that's if I don't want to go back to Borderlands 2 and play through their Halloween level, which I freqently consider every time there's a holiday they had a themed level for.

I don't have time to play all these games, and I think I should probably spend some of my life doing other things even if I did, but it's very hard. I am planning to go pick up Red Dead Redemption, and a berry blue DS4, on Friday though, so I will probably be playing that. And I will just see if it takes over my life. I don't know if I want it to. And I kind of fell off GTA 5. But we'll see. Maybe I'll love it and be obsessed with it.

Another thing that is out is Daredevil season 3. They seem to have gotten rid of the stupid red suit and Fisk is back in it. It makes me want to go back and watch season 2 and then watch that. But then that is an awful lot of time, and what if I hate it? I'm very precious with my time when I have a lot of it apparently. It's just easy to waste so much, and just keep on doing whatever you're already doing, instead of making any decisions and doing anything you want and/or need to do. I'm afraid of getting to the end of this two weeks and realising I haven't really done anything with it that would make me feel better, and then realising I have no time left, and no holiday for the rest of the year either. But I think a lot of solid nothing might be what I actually want to do with these two weeks. And what might actually be good for me to do.

The new Halloween film is out too. I might well go see that at some point.

So we found the blackout blinds. Mum and I put them up. I turned out to know as much or more about curtains than she did. And now my room is BEAUTIFULLY DARK when I go to bed and in the mornings. Did I ever say how much I liked the dark? When I was little sometimes I'd just go into the cupboard under the stairs or a walk-in closet in my parents' bedroom, and just lay there on the carpet for hours, or play Stig of the Dump in the dark. I don't know why. Anyway. I'M ENJOYING THE DARK. My sleep's still a little messed up - I still keep waking up around 5am, but yesterday I managed to get back to sleep, and last night I was up for a bit but I think I dreamed afterwards so I must have slept, and it was more restful in any case. My drymouth's a bit better, but I think the upshot is that it's because I'm drinking more water, so I need to go to the toilet more often in the night. Which I think is the reason I tried not to drink too much before bed in the first place. That's the trade-off, apparently.

I have also developed a weird lump on my knee in the last few days. I don't know what it is, but it doesn't hurt unless I poke it and I can move it around, so it's not the bone. Mum thinks it's nothing to worry about, but it might be to do with me putting my knee in stressful positions. Literally all I can think of is the way I sit when I'm on the computer or on the playstation. That's never given me weird knee-lumps before. I have been kneeling in front of the computer a bit though, when sitting in my desk chair gives me backache. It seems to be going down a bit now though.

Mostly I am stuck in Daredevil fandom. Which is weird, because I'm not - I didn't LOVE Daredevil. But I did quite like the way they made the main character quite fucked up, and their villain was amazing, and it's a really angsty show which I enjoy. And I slash the hero and the villain, obviously, and I'm on the kinkmeme and other people also seem interested in the pairing, so ahhh. I'm enjoying it.

The best thing about putting up the blackout blinds was that they were originally mum's, because she's a light sleeper and has read some stuff about having a lot of light in the room while you sleep being bad for you, so she wanted them in her bedroom. But my dad for some reason was just against the idea, and he put them in the loft, which is why we couldn't find them earlier this week (which is just such a passive-aggressive thing to do - like, if you're going to use them you need them to hand, and if you're not just give them away, why put them in the loft?). Basically he wasn't interested, and said it was "women's work" to put up curtains and he would be doing it. I heard him really banging about childishly when he was getting them down out of the loft, and then he just threw them down on the landing and didn't tell any of us where they were, just left them there on the floor. Then he heard me asking mum to help put them up, and he sort of jokingly asked about them, and then when we were actually putting them up he came upstairs and into my room, and started giving us advice on how to do it. I was a bit short with him, because I properly didn't understand what he was doing or was his attitude was anymore, putting up curtains is "women's work" except when he can tell women how to do it apparently. But anyway, I got them up and was super happy with them. And the next morning apparently my dad slept through his alarm, and said it was because he was up in the night going to the bathroom, and my mum said "Well you know what you need, BLACKOUT BLINDS". And he SAID NOTHING, and then later said he was going to look into them on the internet and different sizes and stuff, and not to cut mine (because they're too long for my curtains) just in case they wanted them back (for their floor-length curtains). So maybe my mum will get blackout blinds after all! Because that's my dad. He's so weirdly enthusiastic about things as long as someone else has done them first.

ETA: Oh my god, what has Livejournal done to the entry pages?

In the last couple of days I have watched all of Daredevil.

( Spoilers )

Also -

Dear Jennifer, I absolutely did go through Carnforth station on my way back home, love Rachael.