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My counsellor did not call me today. I called the service, because that's the only number he'll give me to contact him on, and ten minutes of switchboard and queuing later I spoke to someone and asked them to ask him to call me back. I went downstairs for about two minutes and immediately missed a call back from him. So I had lunch, and then called up and asked them to pass on my house phone number, if he somehow didn't have it, so I would have a better chance of catching the call. He then called me back and finally we spoke. I thought that maybe he'd tried to call this morning and been done in by the fact our mobile phones don't always get a signal in my house, but no, he'd just gotten 'mixed up' and hadn't called at all. I also asked him what the email thing was, and he said he'd gotten confused about what he had and hadn't done, and probably hadn't emailed me. He sounded very frazzled. Also he was working from home, and partway through our call I heard a child wander past asking for something, and he had to come off the phone to deal with them. So. It was all a bit chaotic and he wasn't very organised, which is something I've half come to expect from him. But in the end we arranged an appointment, and I am seeing him next Tuesday afternoon.

At least it got done.

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It's also really difficult for me to not just plan this entire two weeks off in terms of video games. Red Dead Redemption 2 is coming out on Friday, and it feels like the whole world is waiting for it, and I haven't even played the first one but I'm still anticipating it, just to see if it's as good as everyone hopes it'll be. I'm playing two other games at the moment that I probably won't finish before then - maybe one of them, but the other is Assassin's Creed Odyssey, and I'm about 30 hours in and feel like I've just scratched the surface. There's a new Spider-Man post-game story out today. It's Halloween next week, which I keep forgetting, and Call of Cthulhu is a game I've been following for a while and is out next Tuesday - and I do kind of believe in playing scary games at Halloween. But it'd mean tearing myself away from Red Dead Redemption, and then not finishing it probably so I could go back to Red Dead Redemption. There's also a Destiny 2 'event' going on for Halloween, and it's the first time I've even vaguely been involved in Destiny while that was happening, so I kind of feel like jumping into that. And then also there's Far Cry 5 - I almost always feel like playing some more Far Cry 5, or starting a new playthrough, but the game is set in October (which is all thematic because the cult believes the end of the world is near), and there are pumpkin patches scattered around, so it would feel quite apt. And that's if I don't want to go back to Borderlands 2 and play through their Halloween level, which I freqently consider every time there's a holiday they had a themed level for.

I don't have time to play all these games, and I think I should probably spend some of my life doing other things even if I did, but it's very hard. I am planning to go pick up Red Dead Redemption, and a berry blue DS4, on Friday though, so I will probably be playing that. And I will just see if it takes over my life. I don't know if I want it to. And I kind of fell off GTA 5. But we'll see. Maybe I'll love it and be obsessed with it.

Another thing that is out is Daredevil season 3. They seem to have gotten rid of the stupid red suit and Fisk is back in it. It makes me want to go back and watch season 2 and then watch that. But then that is an awful lot of time, and what if I hate it? I'm very precious with my time when I have a lot of it apparently. It's just easy to waste so much, and just keep on doing whatever you're already doing, instead of making any decisions and doing anything you want and/or need to do. I'm afraid of getting to the end of this two weeks and realising I haven't really done anything with it that would make me feel better, and then realising I have no time left, and no holiday for the rest of the year either. But I think a lot of solid nothing might be what I actually want to do with these two weeks. And what might actually be good for me to do.

The new Halloween film is out too. I might well go see that at some point.