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Jun. 11th, 2018 02:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
girlofpreyOoohh E3 oooohh Bethesda oooohhh. It started off slow and weird, but it got great at the end.
It finally finished at 4am - simultaneously half an hour later and earlier than I was prepared for - and I went to go to bed. I started rearranging my curtains and blackout blinds, as I do, making sure no light can get through the cracks, and I thought "wow, what's that blue light from outside?? Is it aliens??". It turned out to be the sun. And the blue sky of morning. I hadn't quite realised how early the sun comes up at the moment. And the beautiful dawn chorus. I mostly prepared to do the same thing again tonight, though.
Another thing I forgot I was supposed to be doing this week is talking about coming off my tablets. I've been on mild antidepressants for a few years now, and every time I actually see a doctor we talk about me coming off them, doing a review, but it has to be in spring to try to avoid the effects of SAD. But then that never happens. Nothing gets booked, and I get on with my life and forget about it, until I randomly think 'oh yeah'. Earlier this year I actually forgot to take my pills for a few days, and before I realised that, I feel like I actually felt better. Like I could focus a little more on things, read casually at work and etc. Who knows if those effects would last, but still I'd like to try them. So in the absence of my doctor doing anything, I've decided to try weaning myself off them. But I would still like the doctor's advice and for them to be involved - the only problem is that getting an appointment (you can basically only get same-day at my clinic) and even just trying to get a phonecall from my doctor was a problem when I work every workday afternoon, and might not be in long enough for them to get back to me easily. So I decided I'd try to do it this week, when I have plenty of time off. I've called up now and I'm just waiting for them to call back and say if I do need an appointment or not. Frankly, I think this isn't a great week to actually do it, given that my current pills are about to run out and obviously I'm going to be not sleeping and not having much of a routine for the next few days due to staying up for E3. But I'd like to get started on it. It'd be nice to see what the effects will actually be of coming off them, and if I would be better off off them now.
It finally finished at 4am - simultaneously half an hour later and earlier than I was prepared for - and I went to go to bed. I started rearranging my curtains and blackout blinds, as I do, making sure no light can get through the cracks, and I thought "wow, what's that blue light from outside?? Is it aliens??". It turned out to be the sun. And the blue sky of morning. I hadn't quite realised how early the sun comes up at the moment. And the beautiful dawn chorus. I mostly prepared to do the same thing again tonight, though.
Another thing I forgot I was supposed to be doing this week is talking about coming off my tablets. I've been on mild antidepressants for a few years now, and every time I actually see a doctor we talk about me coming off them, doing a review, but it has to be in spring to try to avoid the effects of SAD. But then that never happens. Nothing gets booked, and I get on with my life and forget about it, until I randomly think 'oh yeah'. Earlier this year I actually forgot to take my pills for a few days, and before I realised that, I feel like I actually felt better. Like I could focus a little more on things, read casually at work and etc. Who knows if those effects would last, but still I'd like to try them. So in the absence of my doctor doing anything, I've decided to try weaning myself off them. But I would still like the doctor's advice and for them to be involved - the only problem is that getting an appointment (you can basically only get same-day at my clinic) and even just trying to get a phonecall from my doctor was a problem when I work every workday afternoon, and might not be in long enough for them to get back to me easily. So I decided I'd try to do it this week, when I have plenty of time off. I've called up now and I'm just waiting for them to call back and say if I do need an appointment or not. Frankly, I think this isn't a great week to actually do it, given that my current pills are about to run out and obviously I'm going to be not sleeping and not having much of a routine for the next few days due to staying up for E3. But I'd like to get started on it. It'd be nice to see what the effects will actually be of coming off them, and if I would be better off off them now.
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Date: 2018-06-12 04:50 pm (UTC)I hope coming off the pills goes okay!
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Date: 2018-06-13 04:17 pm (UTC)I spoke to my doctor on Monday and I've started just taking half a pill today. Hopefully it goes well!