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girlofpreyWhat up, friends! It's ya girl.
I'm still sick, but marginally less gross and awful-feeling than I was during the week. Last night I actually had hours of unbroken sleep after taking buttercup syrup before bed, and not having to get up/go to work is a huge help.
I've been thinking of taking a day off next Monday because it's Paris Games Week and Playstation have teased a big broadcast and some new announcements, and it's always nice to see that in person rather than being spoiled when you go to look for the stream later. Because I love the console wars, I find it kind of amazing, because Playstation didn't really announce anything new at E3, when Microsoft were announcing the new Xbox One X (or X.B.O.X.), for which Microsoft announced pretty much no new games - and now they're having a big announcement a week before the XBOX actually goes on sale. Like, go Sony. You keep trying to undercut the competition. But then I realised the day after that is Halloween, and then the Sunday after that is Bonfire night (and my dad's birthday). And then it's basically what I consider the Christmas season. I have 6 holiday days left if I take next Monday off, and I was planning to take a week off in December, so I could enjoy the Christmas season and do some shopping and stuff. But I really need to get that planned out and booked in now, so my manager can find cover, and it's just seems to be coming up pretty fast. October didn't really feel like October for a long time, because it was so ridiculously warm and then I was sick. And to be fair, I've been in a Div fugue for some time. But it also just feels like the end of the year and Christmas and everything is coming up really fast. It'll be 2018 before we know it. I guess maybe this is just how it feels when you're working all the time - first year I've really done that in a long time.
We've learned some more about the Red Prince in Div. I finally got to a level where we could cream the assassins, so I went back and did the Red Princess thing again. Before that, I decided to chat to old RP again, and it turns out before he got kicked out of his throne/empire, he barely went out at all. They had a forbidden city in that particular fantasy land, and he wasn't allowed to leave it, in case something terrible happened to him. He was an amazing tactician and warrior, but he won all his battles from his living room basically - the advisors brought him reports on what was happening, he gave them orders based on the information, and then they won. So he basically started summoning demons for funsies, and then sleeping with succubuses for similar funsies, and then a succubus attacked him and he got found out and kicked out. And now he's in love with the Red Princess, who disappeared shortly after their first meeting, and he's willing to become a god to get her back, if that turns out to be the only way he can, which seems like a thing my character might need to kill him for. I really like the Red Prince. Even though he seems to think everyone besides him is basically a slave. Once again, the companions are really making it for me in this RPG, but it's a slow drip. Lohse's talked about a group of musicians she used to travel with that felt like her family, but that's about it, and Beast only really talks about the fact he wants to get the Queen. But I'm prepared to love them even more when/if their stories really come about.
Div is a game I'm really enjoying, but it's also a game I stay up at night thinking about. Mostly I'm really enjoying role-playing, and accepting the consequences if things go wrong, because there's so many ways to do things in Div, and so many ways quests play out even if things go wrong. But occasionally I will reload a save to do a quest 'correctly', and then feel like I've done it wrong for hours afterwards. Last night it was one where it was a quest that my journal, and the whole game world, seemed to be strongly suggesting I do, and I only needed to pass a speech check to get into the place where I could hand the quest in, and you don't even know, I and every companion in my party failed the speech checks, and then I went off and found a dead elf so I could take their face and make a shapeshifter mask so I could appear as an elf and do the speech checks again, and an internet comment suggested that it was super easy if you just 'were' an elf, but I still failed it, so I reloaded the save to try the other one, and it worked, and I went along with it. And then I felt like a fraud. It turned out I actually could have completed the quest anyway, by doing a different quest I was already going to do, which makes me feel better and worse, because it would have had pretty much the same outcome anyway, but also I could have just let go and let myself have my own story. But I can't see the future, and it's not exactly the worst thing in the world, to let myself have a few blips. I probably have enough going on in my life that I feel anxious about with letting a video game be one of them. Mostly when it keeps me up, it's not about stuff like that at all, it's about remembering to experiment with a power differently, or to try a new thing in a quest (like cutting off faces for a shapeshifter mask), or to look into a random side encounter I can see that isn't on the map, and I want to have before I leave the area completely. There's a lot going on in Divinity: Original Sin 2. But I'm really enjoying it.
ETA: I have to say though, being sick is awful, but it has given me a new appreciation of my body. My coughing is amazing. When I actually have something in my throat and I cough, I can feel how far down it goes and how powerful it is. I have like a pneumatic cannon in my chest. Well done, evolution, the diaphragm is some top-notch work. I am amazing.
I'm still sick, but marginally less gross and awful-feeling than I was during the week. Last night I actually had hours of unbroken sleep after taking buttercup syrup before bed, and not having to get up/go to work is a huge help.
I've been thinking of taking a day off next Monday because it's Paris Games Week and Playstation have teased a big broadcast and some new announcements, and it's always nice to see that in person rather than being spoiled when you go to look for the stream later. Because I love the console wars, I find it kind of amazing, because Playstation didn't really announce anything new at E3, when Microsoft were announcing the new Xbox One X (or X.B.O.X.), for which Microsoft announced pretty much no new games - and now they're having a big announcement a week before the XBOX actually goes on sale. Like, go Sony. You keep trying to undercut the competition. But then I realised the day after that is Halloween, and then the Sunday after that is Bonfire night (and my dad's birthday). And then it's basically what I consider the Christmas season. I have 6 holiday days left if I take next Monday off, and I was planning to take a week off in December, so I could enjoy the Christmas season and do some shopping and stuff. But I really need to get that planned out and booked in now, so my manager can find cover, and it's just seems to be coming up pretty fast. October didn't really feel like October for a long time, because it was so ridiculously warm and then I was sick. And to be fair, I've been in a Div fugue for some time. But it also just feels like the end of the year and Christmas and everything is coming up really fast. It'll be 2018 before we know it. I guess maybe this is just how it feels when you're working all the time - first year I've really done that in a long time.
We've learned some more about the Red Prince in Div. I finally got to a level where we could cream the assassins, so I went back and did the Red Princess thing again. Before that, I decided to chat to old RP again, and it turns out before he got kicked out of his throne/empire, he barely went out at all. They had a forbidden city in that particular fantasy land, and he wasn't allowed to leave it, in case something terrible happened to him. He was an amazing tactician and warrior, but he won all his battles from his living room basically - the advisors brought him reports on what was happening, he gave them orders based on the information, and then they won. So he basically started summoning demons for funsies, and then sleeping with succubuses for similar funsies, and then a succubus attacked him and he got found out and kicked out. And now he's in love with the Red Princess, who disappeared shortly after their first meeting, and he's willing to become a god to get her back, if that turns out to be the only way he can, which seems like a thing my character might need to kill him for. I really like the Red Prince. Even though he seems to think everyone besides him is basically a slave. Once again, the companions are really making it for me in this RPG, but it's a slow drip. Lohse's talked about a group of musicians she used to travel with that felt like her family, but that's about it, and Beast only really talks about the fact he wants to get the Queen. But I'm prepared to love them even more when/if their stories really come about.
Div is a game I'm really enjoying, but it's also a game I stay up at night thinking about. Mostly I'm really enjoying role-playing, and accepting the consequences if things go wrong, because there's so many ways to do things in Div, and so many ways quests play out even if things go wrong. But occasionally I will reload a save to do a quest 'correctly', and then feel like I've done it wrong for hours afterwards. Last night it was one where it was a quest that my journal, and the whole game world, seemed to be strongly suggesting I do, and I only needed to pass a speech check to get into the place where I could hand the quest in, and you don't even know, I and every companion in my party failed the speech checks, and then I went off and found a dead elf so I could take their face and make a shapeshifter mask so I could appear as an elf and do the speech checks again, and an internet comment suggested that it was super easy if you just 'were' an elf, but I still failed it, so I reloaded the save to try the other one, and it worked, and I went along with it. And then I felt like a fraud. It turned out I actually could have completed the quest anyway, by doing a different quest I was already going to do, which makes me feel better and worse, because it would have had pretty much the same outcome anyway, but also I could have just let go and let myself have my own story. But I can't see the future, and it's not exactly the worst thing in the world, to let myself have a few blips. I probably have enough going on in my life that I feel anxious about with letting a video game be one of them. Mostly when it keeps me up, it's not about stuff like that at all, it's about remembering to experiment with a power differently, or to try a new thing in a quest (like cutting off faces for a shapeshifter mask), or to look into a random side encounter I can see that isn't on the map, and I want to have before I leave the area completely. There's a lot going on in Divinity: Original Sin 2. But I'm really enjoying it.
ETA: I have to say though, being sick is awful, but it has given me a new appreciation of my body. My coughing is amazing. When I actually have something in my throat and I cough, I can feel how far down it goes and how powerful it is. I have like a pneumatic cannon in my chest. Well done, evolution, the diaphragm is some top-notch work. I am amazing.
