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[girlofprey]

So, we finally set a date to have the dog put down. After a bit of to-ing and fro-ing about it. As I said, the vet offered to do it then and there when we went last Friday, but none of us were ready I think. So basically we were talking about this week, and letting my ON see him for the last time when he came down on Tuesday, and stuff. So basically we were talking about this Friday, in the end. But then mum suddenly comes out of nowhere talking about August 5th. Which is one week before we go away on holiday, and obviously a few weeks of worrying about it and what it's going to be like. I mean, I am in no hurry to lose the dog, but if we have to do it and the vet says it's in his best interests, it seems like it's better to do it sooner than later. Mum said something about August 5th being the day he was 14 and a half. She'd also made comments, after going to the vet, about how she always worried about coming downstairs and finding out the dog had died in his sleep, but now she wished he would, so we wouldn't have to do it ourselves. So it was probably a little bit about not having to confront that decision too.

But anyway. I think I voiced my displeasure/distress about that idea, and when we started talking about it again we were talking about this week again. Except we hadn't booked anything, so maybe it would have to be next week. My mum was supposed to call them about it, but she decided to leave that to dad. So it was really up in the air, with me not knowing how long we had left with the dog, or which day exactly to start preparing for.

But dad called the vet today, and arranged it, and it's on Friday. In the morning, before I normally get up, so I'll have to get up early for it as well. But yeah. We have one full day left with him. So that's all happening this week.

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[whatho.livejournal.com]

Best of luck - I think it's easier knowing the date, and not having to wait too long. I remember there was loads of vacillating when Lotus was going to be put down and it was really stressful. I hope you have a nice last day with him.

[girlofprey.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was really hard not knowing when to prepare for, or how long we had left. I feel a lot better at least having a date and time in mind. And as far his last day - my mum's got him minced steak for his dinner. It makes me feel like crying just thinking about it.