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May. 29th, 2012 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
girlofpreySo. I had an interesting day today. At some point last night, I went from being in a good mood to being in an irritated mood, and that sort of carried on into today. I'm still not sure if that was about Dead Space being difficult again. It might well be my hormones. But anyway, it happened.
This morning I was woken up by my counselling service calling me to say, for the third week in a row, that my counsellor was ill so I wouldn't be able to see her. They also said that it was a bank holiday next week, so it would be four weeks I'd be going without seeing her. I pointed out that actually, it had alreay been four weeks, because she was on leave the week before she got ill. And I really like my counselling service, and my counsellor, but it's not even the first time she's had to cancel sessions, or multiple sessions, because she was ill. It's not like I can really be angry about it, I can't exactly ban her from being ill. But six weeks in a row, and they didn't even notice I hadn't been/wasn't going to be seen in that long? It's not exactly brilliant service. And it wouldn't be so bad, but they never call to say she's off until the morning of my appointment, I guess because they don't want to cancel pre-emptively in case people get better. But when you've planned your day around it, and you don't like last minute changes - and it happens three weeks in a row - it starts to make you a little bit angry.
Anyway, when I said that they asked if I wanted to see someone else, this week, and I said yes. It's sort of just bad timing to have no counselling anyway, with all the stuff going on with mum being away and grandma being ill. So they asked if I'd be available Friday, and I said yes, and they went off to arrange it. Then they called me back to say someone was available today at 4 o'clock, would that be suitable? And I said yes. But because I didn't have much sleep yesterday because I was getting up early, and because I went to bed late last night, and because I kept getting woken up to take phonecalls, I was exhausted and kept sleeping through all the times I wanted to get up. So I ended up getting up really late, only having the time to get ready to go out and no time to have lunch or anything, and then I left the house at 3, only to see the 3.05 bus which stops at the end of our street, whizz by. So I had to walk into town to get another one any sooner than just before I was supposed to be at my appointment. On the way, I was literally irritated with the clouds and the sun, because they were taking it in turns to be either kind of cold, or boiling hot. I got to the bus stop, and texted to see when the next bus was, and that was a few minutes late. And it was packed. I had to sit in a priority seat, and an old man with a walking stick walked past me before I realised and had a chance to offer him my seat. I think someone else offered him theirs.
So I was late anyway. But it was alright in the end, it was nice to actually see someone and get some things off my chest. A family situation that I completely forgot I hadn't already mentioned on LJ is that my sister is moving house, to somewhere really quite close to our house. Essentially my parents and I live at the bottom of a hill, and she is going to be living up the hill. It is literally going to be a downhill walk from her house to ours, and an uphill walk from our house back up to hers. And I kind of don't necessarily think it's going to mean she'll be round at our house anymore than she usually is, she still doesn't really bother getting ready until the afternoon and doesn't tend to go out when she doesn't need to, and she always had the option of getting mum or dad to come get her if she really wanted to come to ours. But the possibility is still freaking me out a bit. And she's still going to be closer. I sort of don't feel like I can resent her getting this new house, because she does need more space with three kids, and it's in a quiet cul-de-sac instead of next to a road where cars go whizzing by all the time, in between a load of little nature walks and patches of grass and things. But I really wish the new house was somewhere else. So that's been bugging me a bit, lately, I think. She's been trying to get a new house for a while, but she kept not accepting some or not getting certain bids. Then she got this one, but it wasn't set in stone for a month or so. But now, her lease pretty much started yesterday. So it's pretty definite at this point. Again, I don't know if it will necessarily mean her coming down here more. I hope not. But it's just worrying me slightly lately.
Anyway. So, I finally had my appointment, and it was alright, and I managed to get back home a bit earlier than I usually do. We discussed the possibility of me maybe changing to a different counsellor, because she really has been ill a lot, but I'm not asking just yet. It would mean starting all over again with someone new, and again, it's not like I can be angry with my counsellor for being ill. But if it happens again, I'm really going to consider it, because this is just - a little bit ridiculous, and not that doable for me, really, in the long run.
Anyway. My main plan for the rest of the week is to take it easy a bit. I think maybe going to my two courses last week, and then going out to buy a new CD player, and then going out to see my grandma on Saturday might have been a bit of a drain for me. I have a course tomorrow, but it's one I can skip, so I'm planning to. I still have to go out at some point this week though, because - contrary to what my doctor told me - I got a letter from the DWP saying me sick note was about to run out, and I needed a new one even though I'd won my ESA appeal. I called the doctors' to make an appointment, and after they basically said there weren't many available, I explained what I needed, they said if it was just a continuation they could just get a new sick note written out for me, and I could just pick it up from the front desk. Which is new. But nicely hassle-free. But I still need to go pick it up so I can send it. And I also need a new prescription for Mefenamic Acid, and if my current irritation really is because of my hormones, I probably need that doing pretty soon. But other than that, I am planning to be free and easy.
This morning I was woken up by my counselling service calling me to say, for the third week in a row, that my counsellor was ill so I wouldn't be able to see her. They also said that it was a bank holiday next week, so it would be four weeks I'd be going without seeing her. I pointed out that actually, it had alreay been four weeks, because she was on leave the week before she got ill. And I really like my counselling service, and my counsellor, but it's not even the first time she's had to cancel sessions, or multiple sessions, because she was ill. It's not like I can really be angry about it, I can't exactly ban her from being ill. But six weeks in a row, and they didn't even notice I hadn't been/wasn't going to be seen in that long? It's not exactly brilliant service. And it wouldn't be so bad, but they never call to say she's off until the morning of my appointment, I guess because they don't want to cancel pre-emptively in case people get better. But when you've planned your day around it, and you don't like last minute changes - and it happens three weeks in a row - it starts to make you a little bit angry.
Anyway, when I said that they asked if I wanted to see someone else, this week, and I said yes. It's sort of just bad timing to have no counselling anyway, with all the stuff going on with mum being away and grandma being ill. So they asked if I'd be available Friday, and I said yes, and they went off to arrange it. Then they called me back to say someone was available today at 4 o'clock, would that be suitable? And I said yes. But because I didn't have much sleep yesterday because I was getting up early, and because I went to bed late last night, and because I kept getting woken up to take phonecalls, I was exhausted and kept sleeping through all the times I wanted to get up. So I ended up getting up really late, only having the time to get ready to go out and no time to have lunch or anything, and then I left the house at 3, only to see the 3.05 bus which stops at the end of our street, whizz by. So I had to walk into town to get another one any sooner than just before I was supposed to be at my appointment. On the way, I was literally irritated with the clouds and the sun, because they were taking it in turns to be either kind of cold, or boiling hot. I got to the bus stop, and texted to see when the next bus was, and that was a few minutes late. And it was packed. I had to sit in a priority seat, and an old man with a walking stick walked past me before I realised and had a chance to offer him my seat. I think someone else offered him theirs.
So I was late anyway. But it was alright in the end, it was nice to actually see someone and get some things off my chest. A family situation that I completely forgot I hadn't already mentioned on LJ is that my sister is moving house, to somewhere really quite close to our house. Essentially my parents and I live at the bottom of a hill, and she is going to be living up the hill. It is literally going to be a downhill walk from her house to ours, and an uphill walk from our house back up to hers. And I kind of don't necessarily think it's going to mean she'll be round at our house anymore than she usually is, she still doesn't really bother getting ready until the afternoon and doesn't tend to go out when she doesn't need to, and she always had the option of getting mum or dad to come get her if she really wanted to come to ours. But the possibility is still freaking me out a bit. And she's still going to be closer. I sort of don't feel like I can resent her getting this new house, because she does need more space with three kids, and it's in a quiet cul-de-sac instead of next to a road where cars go whizzing by all the time, in between a load of little nature walks and patches of grass and things. But I really wish the new house was somewhere else. So that's been bugging me a bit, lately, I think. She's been trying to get a new house for a while, but she kept not accepting some or not getting certain bids. Then she got this one, but it wasn't set in stone for a month or so. But now, her lease pretty much started yesterday. So it's pretty definite at this point. Again, I don't know if it will necessarily mean her coming down here more. I hope not. But it's just worrying me slightly lately.
Anyway. So, I finally had my appointment, and it was alright, and I managed to get back home a bit earlier than I usually do. We discussed the possibility of me maybe changing to a different counsellor, because she really has been ill a lot, but I'm not asking just yet. It would mean starting all over again with someone new, and again, it's not like I can be angry with my counsellor for being ill. But if it happens again, I'm really going to consider it, because this is just - a little bit ridiculous, and not that doable for me, really, in the long run.
Anyway. My main plan for the rest of the week is to take it easy a bit. I think maybe going to my two courses last week, and then going out to buy a new CD player, and then going out to see my grandma on Saturday might have been a bit of a drain for me. I have a course tomorrow, but it's one I can skip, so I'm planning to. I still have to go out at some point this week though, because - contrary to what my doctor told me - I got a letter from the DWP saying me sick note was about to run out, and I needed a new one even though I'd won my ESA appeal. I called the doctors' to make an appointment, and after they basically said there weren't many available, I explained what I needed, they said if it was just a continuation they could just get a new sick note written out for me, and I could just pick it up from the front desk. Which is new. But nicely hassle-free. But I still need to go pick it up so I can send it. And I also need a new prescription for Mefenamic Acid, and if my current irritation really is because of my hormones, I probably need that doing pretty soon. But other than that, I am planning to be free and easy.
