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[girlofprey]

Hello.

I went to see my grandmother on Saturday, with my family and sister. I want to say it wasn't that bad, but really it was kind of a mixed bag. Like, the fact that even though we called my sister before we all set off from our house to make sure she was ready and she said she was, we still had to wait half an hour for her to actually get in the car and set off. But I didn't have to talk to her much. And at the hospital, my grandmother was basically just asleep, so we didn't really get to see her that much. But I'm still glad I went. And, because my sister didn't want to leave all three of her kids with their dad on his own, she ended up bringing my YN with her, who I've only seen a handful of times since he was born. So I got to spend some time with him. He spoke to me! Sort of. He made noises. And he looked me in the eyes and laughed sometimes. So it wasn't a terrible day, overall.

It's been really hard to post lately. For some reason, no matter what I do, I always end up only just getting on the internet at about midnight, and I don't really like to post then because I assume people won't be around. The main non-family things that have been happening in my life recently are:

• A few months ago, in a moment of either genius or psychosis, I decided there really should be a Silent Hill Texts From Last Night tumblr. And lo and behold. It is amazing.



• The Interceptor was a game show on TV in the 80s. I never saw any of The Interceptor. I do not know why.



• SUNSHINE! It's slightly unbearable to be out in. But quite nice to look at. And the poppies are starting to come out, yay!



• I am playing Dead Space. I LOVE DEAD SPACE. 'Survival horror' is apparently the phrase I was looking for when I was talking about Shadows Of The Damned, and that's what Dead Space is and even more so. You get to play Isaac Clarke, an engineer on a routine repair mission to the mining ship his girlfriend works on, but when he and his team get there, they find the ship deserted, and also infested with alien zombies. Then you get cut off from the rest of your team, and basically have to fix everything and kill everything while everyone else (apparently) dicks about on computers for you, and sends you videos telling you what to do. It is terrifying and I love it. I was going to post angrily about it for a while, after hitting a suddenly horrendous bit, but it's not all been horrendous since then, so I think it was an intentional narrative twist. Still. Love. It is terrifying. Every nerve I have is wracked, and I can only really stand to play it for about an hour at a time. But it is also kind of brilliant.
  
  The only annoying thing is that I kind of want to Google it, and see what other people are saying about it. But, whereas it's kind of like a TV show in that I personally am finishing it over a period of time, I get the feeling - and from personal experience with game fandoms - that a bit like a film, everyone talking about it probably have finished it and anything I look up will probably have spoilers. Also there is a whole other game. So I must WAIT. Which I will.



• I missed Eurovision on Saturday. But I had already sort of seen most of the songs. I actually quite liked Sweden's song (I think? Was it a lady rolling around in confetti and a man dancing?). If it is the one I was thinking of, I don't mind that they won. Sad news about Englebert Humperdink though. Poor Englebert.

I am watching almost no telly at the moment I think, and haven't seen any films. I wanted to watch Hit and Miss on Sky, but apparently that started last week, and I'd like to see The Raid, but chances are that's out of cinemas now too. Hmph.