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May. 24th, 2011 09:02 pmHello. Mostly I want to apologise for that post last night. I was quite jittery, and attempting to not let it ruin fannish things/soaps for me. Also it did make me feel a bit better to just talk about it for a bit. Sorry if it was weird and didn't make a lot of sense though.
( The assessment. Cut for rambling, and possibly triggery for mental health issues and thoughts of self-harm )
So anyway. It's over now. I just have to wait and see what happens. Like I say, I've heard all the horror stories online about people with proper physical illnesses, things you can probably measure and everything, being classed as 'fit for work', so I'm not holding out too much hope of getting it. I'd like to, obviously, but I know it might well not be anything to do with me if I don't, or not entirely because of me, or whether or not I deserve it or anything I guess. And even if I don't get it, and I'm not on any benefits for a bit, I'll still have some money coming in, so it won't be too awful. Anyway. We'll see what happens now, I guess. I am glad I've done it, and not done it too badly (I think), though.
So. Anyway. Now all I have to do is my new counselling session tomorrow, and my course on Thursday. Tomorrow should be alright, it's just weird the thought of starting all over again with a new counsellor, and the possibility I might get a counsellor I don't get on with, I guess. But hopefully that won't happen. The main thing I'm worried about now is, after a week of getting up to go to appointments, having to get up and go to my course on Thursday again. I've already been having problems getting up in time to get the bus that gets me there on time as it is, I'm not sure how I'll feel this week. But I don't have go if I don't want to, I guess. Other people skip weeks sometimes, I could too. I'll see how I feel tomorrow, I guess.
( The assessment. Cut for rambling, and possibly triggery for mental health issues and thoughts of self-harm )
So anyway. It's over now. I just have to wait and see what happens. Like I say, I've heard all the horror stories online about people with proper physical illnesses, things you can probably measure and everything, being classed as 'fit for work', so I'm not holding out too much hope of getting it. I'd like to, obviously, but I know it might well not be anything to do with me if I don't, or not entirely because of me, or whether or not I deserve it or anything I guess. And even if I don't get it, and I'm not on any benefits for a bit, I'll still have some money coming in, so it won't be too awful. Anyway. We'll see what happens now, I guess. I am glad I've done it, and not done it too badly (I think), though.
So. Anyway. Now all I have to do is my new counselling session tomorrow, and my course on Thursday. Tomorrow should be alright, it's just weird the thought of starting all over again with a new counsellor, and the possibility I might get a counsellor I don't get on with, I guess. But hopefully that won't happen. The main thing I'm worried about now is, after a week of getting up to go to appointments, having to get up and go to my course on Thursday again. I've already been having problems getting up in time to get the bus that gets me there on time as it is, I'm not sure how I'll feel this week. But I don't have go if I don't want to, I guess. Other people skip weeks sometimes, I could too. I'll see how I feel tomorrow, I guess.
