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girlofprey) wrote2014-07-12 10:54 pm
girlofprey) wrote2014-07-12 10:54 pm
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Just been to the local Proms event in a castle, like last year. It was really lovely, as before. We took my ON this year, and my dad decided he'd come - last year it was just me and mum - and I was a little worried my ON would just be bored and bugging us all the time. But he brought a friend and then met a bunch of his schoolfriends at the event, so he spent all his time running around a castle ruin on a summer's evening while classical music played. Not a bad way to spend time. We had a little picnic, and it was threatening rain all evening, but it held off for the most part. A weather forecast I saw yesterday said it'd be sunny where we are this morning, then some rain would start coming in from the west in the afternoon - and then Sunday would be THUNDERSTORMS. Kind of skipped out on Saturday evening. But it was sort of spitting on and off for most of the night, and only started raining properly during the last two songs. We had a bit of time to pack up our things and get our brollies out, and it didn't ruin the Firework Spectacular they like to end things with, which really was pretty Spectacular. So, result. It's a lovely night out for £6 each.
It's throwing it down now and I am exhausted. I'm also super-annoyed by the Dragon Age thing. I've started replaying the game with the same origin and same character again, and it is helping me refine the character a little bit, but it's a little boring when you know every shocking revelation that is to come, and also slightly jarring to have different emotional reactions to everything because your character is kind of a child. The main thing that is annoying though is that I don't feel able to get on with the super-long fic I was writing that will probably never be posted but I was enjoying writing anyway. I have ideas for where the next bit of the story was going to go and it's frustrating to not be able to write them. Like, I COULD just write it now, with this new version of the Warden and Alistair I'm envisioning - but it doesn't seem like there's much point if that version's probably still going to change as I replay the game with them, and also I have to edit the previous bits with the new version as well when I'm done (or whatever). And I don't want to just rush through the new playthrough of Dragon Age when it takes a lot of concentration and roleplaying for me to really get a feel for it, and when I tend to have wildly powerful emotional reactions to it - but I don't feel able to get on with other things around it either, and I don't want to let go of them because I really like the momentum I built up, what if I never go back to my epically long fic? Huhhhhhhhhhhh.
IF THE WARDEN IS 18 DURING THE COURSE OF ORIGINS THEN THEY MAKE HER COMMANDER OF THE GRAY AND GIVE HER AMARANTHINE WHEN SHE IS A 19 YEAR-OLD SUPERHERO WAR VETERAN, OH MY GOD. No wonder the nobles can't handle it.
I LOVE THE WARDEN.
I'm so tired lately, and I can't tell if it's the heat, or light/curtain issues meaning I don't sleep, or the heat stopping me from properly sleeping, or anxiety build-up from some CBT stuff I'm doing at the moment. Or not writing suddenly keeping me up at night the way writing did when I first started to.
There's a festival in my town tomorrow, but I probably won't go to it. Tired.
It's throwing it down now and I am exhausted. I'm also super-annoyed by the Dragon Age thing. I've started replaying the game with the same origin and same character again, and it is helping me refine the character a little bit, but it's a little boring when you know every shocking revelation that is to come, and also slightly jarring to have different emotional reactions to everything because your character is kind of a child. The main thing that is annoying though is that I don't feel able to get on with the super-long fic I was writing that will probably never be posted but I was enjoying writing anyway. I have ideas for where the next bit of the story was going to go and it's frustrating to not be able to write them. Like, I COULD just write it now, with this new version of the Warden and Alistair I'm envisioning - but it doesn't seem like there's much point if that version's probably still going to change as I replay the game with them, and also I have to edit the previous bits with the new version as well when I'm done (or whatever). And I don't want to just rush through the new playthrough of Dragon Age when it takes a lot of concentration and roleplaying for me to really get a feel for it, and when I tend to have wildly powerful emotional reactions to it - but I don't feel able to get on with other things around it either, and I don't want to let go of them because I really like the momentum I built up, what if I never go back to my epically long fic? Huhhhhhhhhhhh.
IF THE WARDEN IS 18 DURING THE COURSE OF ORIGINS THEN THEY MAKE HER COMMANDER OF THE GRAY AND GIVE HER AMARANTHINE WHEN SHE IS A 19 YEAR-OLD SUPERHERO WAR VETERAN, OH MY GOD. No wonder the nobles can't handle it.
I LOVE THE WARDEN.
I'm so tired lately, and I can't tell if it's the heat, or light/curtain issues meaning I don't sleep, or the heat stopping me from properly sleeping, or anxiety build-up from some CBT stuff I'm doing at the moment. Or not writing suddenly keeping me up at night the way writing did when I first started to.
There's a festival in my town tomorrow, but I probably won't go to it. Tired.