I feel sick with how much make up she put on her face.

I am also doing the thing where I just want to buy things, but then I want to never buy anything again because we shouldn't have things, we should have health care and communities and simpler ways of doing everything, and my brain hurts. And then later when I'm less in my head I just buy things.

People touch Rita sometimes and I think it's okay and I know it doesn't last long on fabric and dogs are practically fabric and I do not dettol her, but it is a funny thing. She wants so much to be loved that I can't very well stop them.