Ah, I am so sorry about the anxiety you've been suffering through because of everything. I am going through similar things myself because I live with my mother and she is in the "higher risk" grouping, so even though she's had the vaccine I am still terrified of somehow getting it and spreading it to all of us since I am the only one in the household who hasn't yet gotten vaccinated (I'm on a wait list, but who knows how long that will take?). It might still be a good idea to talk to sympathetic and possibly trained people about it, as you said. I hope that you are able to find something that will help at least a little bit. *virtual hugs* ♥