girlofprey: (R for raygun)
It's hard to find time for porn, video games, and all the other practical things in my life I kind of need to do. Also writing. And soaps. I'm falling very behind on soaps at the moment. We stopped watching them during the holiday, and then there were the Olympics, and now this. I'm meant to be doing a soap podcast again in a few weeks, too.

On the plus, I did find a really incredible fic for a fandom I have no interest in getting involved in - which is sometimes the best combination you can manage, since you're not spending all your time thinking 'this isn't the fic I really wanted, though', or 'I don't think [character X] would have phrased it exactly like that. Essentially, I was looking through a kink tag, found a new fandom and pairing with a dynamic I enjoyed through that kink tag, decided to read all the fic for that pairing, and then found a really good fic that was actually a turn-on and restored my faith in slash fic of the moment. Also there is genuine video online of that (RPF) pairing, where one of them is spoon-feeding the other one pudding for the pleasure of the audience. So that was nice.

I was hoping after that video from the weekend that the tags for my pairing from the Let's Players would be flooded with serial killer!AUs (with fluff), and carrying fic. Sadly that hasn't happened yet. But maybe it's in the works.

Yesterday I finally got around to applying for benefits again. It turned out my last ESA payment was on the 20th of last month, not the 15th, so I couldn't have applied before this weekend anyway. But it was probably some of the least fun I've ever had. First off, it told me I couldn't have Jobseeker's Allowance, I qualified for Universal Credit because of my postcode. Then - having taken me to the Universal Credit page - it said I could make a full claim if my postcode started with a certain set of numbers and letters. It didn't, so it said I could make a partial claim if I lived in 'one of the below areas', and gave me a list. I didn't live in any of them. But the form had said I qualified for Universal Credit, so I started an application anyway. And it turned out I did. Way to make applying for benefits accessible and easy to understand, Conservatives. Anyway, then I actually got to fill out the form - woo! - and it involved needing to know my parents' exact dates of birth and whether they received any benefits at all, and then exactly how much money I had in total. My online banking decided to break at that exact moment, so I ended up having to guess from recent bank statements. They didn't really say how specific I had to be, but whatever. But finally I actually submitted the form - and it gave me some details about what would happen from then on. Which was really nice, but mostly what I learned was that I'll be getting paid £100 less than I did on ESA, and I probably won't receive any payment until October 5th at the earliest.

After I submitted the form, the page took me directly to the government's job-seeking page. I already had an account on there, so I signed in and had a look. I spent a few minutes wading through jobs it suggested for me in Rotherham and Manchester, and then tried a different searchword and almost immediately got offered a zero-hours contract.

Then today I got some ice-cream, and tried to play a free trial of a game I got offered, which ended up taking 3 hours to download. Still. Joy.

I am still working on my Dragon Age fic. I really want Zevran to be involved, and I have an idea for how he could be, but I don't think I could make it believable with other characters involved in the fic. I would also like Morrigan and Wynne involved. And I thought maybe Leliana, but she would literally just talk all the time about how great it was my character was part of the Chantry now, and not understand when my character wanted to have her own beliefs in private, and when Loghain found out there was a literal Orlesian spy in the court he'd probably just kill everyone. So, there's that.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I've got this really awkward pain in the ball of my foot, and I'm not sure what to do about it. I get it sometimes because of wide arches or bunions or whatever, or because I'm a little heavy-footed when I walk. This time it flared up after kickboxing the other week, when I was on the balls of my feet for a long time. Although it might have had something to do with a long, long walk I took with my mum and YN a few weeks before that. Anyway - it was really hurting last week, to the point where I couldn't stay on the ball of my foot for too long, so I decided to give kickboxing a miss, thinking I probably wouldn't be able to do the moves anyway. I typed most of that last sentence with my eyes closed and only made one mistake, I'm amazing. Anyway, I figured it'd be fixed by this week, but whether it's because of the walks I take every day or just from the problem itself, it's not. I don't know whether to give kickboxing a miss again tonight - I can stay on the balls of my feet with a little less pain, but do a lot of that is probably going to make it flare up again, which won't help. It's annoying though, because the more lessons I miss the harder it is to get back into it. Well, it's not hard exactly, but the idea of a lot of the lessons is to build up my strength, and when I don't go I lose it again. But I'm not sure what to do about this foot thing. Mum says it's plantar fasciitis, which means I need to take anti-inflammatories, but it's not - I looked it up and plantar fasciitis is a pain in your heel, and apparently inflammation doesn't have much to do with it. For pain in the ball of the foot - and that is literally the only diagnosis I could find, 'pain in the ball of foot' - they say you can generally cure it with PRICE therapy. Which is Protection, Rest, Ice, Compression, and Elevation. None of which sounds like kickboxing. So. I don't know. I'll probably skip tonight and see how it is in the next couple of days.

I'm also trying to fill in my disability questionnaire. It's due in by May 4th, and I got a strongly worded letter today telling me to send it back soon. The problem is, I don't really know what to say. I'm so much better than I used to be, even if I'm not really putting myself in a lot of stressful situations day-to-day anymore. But I feel like I could probably cope with those better. It's at the point where I feel like if I had the assessment and they found me unfit for work, I would feel like that was wrong. I might even feel a little insulted. But I'm not really relishing going back to work either, or having to depend on a job for money, especially given the state of the job market at the moment. So I still sort of want to go through the assessment process, rather than just cutting it dead. That probably sounds a little cheap, but whatever. But I don't really know what to say - I mean there are still problems, like if I'm particularly wound up one day, I find it hard to get to sleep, which sometimes means I sleep through an alarm or just find it hard to work the next day. But it's not enough to be unfit for work - like, even I feel that way. I guess it's just tough realising that this nice, supported part of my life is coming to end. They say to fill in your questionnaire thinking about yourself on your worst day, but I don't really have bad days anymore, aside from the occasional depressive blip, the last of which happened over a year ago. I'll think of something, it's just at the moment it feels like I'm either talking about my problems as if they're massive things, which they aren't anymore, or like I'm going to be talking them up to the point where I'm basically lying. Which doesn't interest me. Like I say, I'll think of something. If I skip kickboxing tonight I can fill it in tonight, I guess.

I'm also getting a little sick of the news channel for the Lets Players I watch. It's a nice source of video game and tech news, but oh my god - they do all their news stories like opinion pieces, so they can put their own spin on them, but ultimately they try to be so balanced - or avoid backlash - to the point where their opinion is basically nothing. I suppose it just brings home to me that I'm not much of a liberal, which seems to be the only option other than conservative in America. Socialist and proud. Also there's this girl on there, and I love her, but her constant attitude of choice-feminism, sex everywhere, 'there's nothing wrong with sexualisation!', is really starting to grate.

But on the plus side, my farm on Stardew Valley is looking pretty great. Sort of. On the minus side, the fic for Uncharted ended up being really disappointing. They didn't even do a fic around the canonical mind control scene very well. But, on the plus side, I'm about to make Haley in Stardew Valley really happy on her birthday. Which I've never done before. And any day now I might get a rabbit's foot. Which is awesome.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
Mad Max stuff )

A happy thing: one of the Let's Players I like talking about how he 'really misses' the other one I ship him with, in a video the other dude wasn't in.
girlofprey: (Buzzcocks Infuriate Such A Powerful Nati)
I thought I was finished with it and then I ran into LJ posting limits, ugh
girlofprey: (Beauty Parlour Chainsaw Repair)
Title: Running Deep
Fandom: Saints Row series (video game)
Disclaimer: I don't own the Saints Row universe and I'm not making any money off this.

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

Running Deep, part 4 )
girlofprey: (Beauty Parlour Chainsaw Repair)
Title: Running Deep
Fandom: Saints Row series (video game)
Disclaimer: I don't own the Saints Row universe and I'm not making any money off this.

Part 1
Part 2

Running Deep, part 3 )

Part 4
girlofprey: (Beauty Parlour Chainsaw Repair)
Title: Running Deep
Fandom: Saints Row series (video game)
Disclaimer: I don't own the Saints Row universe and I'm not making any money off this.

Part 1

Running Deep, part 2 )

Part 3
Part 4
girlofprey: (Beauty Parlour Chainsaw Repair)
I FINISHED IT.

Title: Running Deep
Fandom: Saints Row series (video game)
Pairing: None, F!Boss + Dane Vogel gen
Wordcount: 34,396
Warnings: Graphic depictions of violence, mentions of violence against sex workers, mentions of death, the two main characters are sociopaths and they don't live in a fun world.
Disclaimer: I don't own the Saints Row universe and I'm not making any money off this.

Summary: Hell is what you make of it.

Running Deep, part 1 )

Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
  • Today I finished a fic I've been writing for some months. Wooo! 38,000 words. On what was originally going to be a sketchy backstory for a different fic. Still, I finished it. Now I just need to edit it, maybe change some things around, and then I can post it. Don't be excited - it's Saints Row fic. Mostly I want to get it finished before the new game with one of the characters comes out. But I have finished the first draft at least, and hurrah.


  • My internet connection keeps coming and going, and it's one of the most frustrating things in the world. It's happening on my Playstation as well, so I don't think it's just my laptop being weird. Maybe we can reset the router. Maybe it'll just clear up on it's own and we won't have to do anything.


  • Relations with my dad have deteriorated.
girlofprey: (Harry Potter Fic Writers Could I Shag Yo)
I've read a couple of fics lately that were SUPER GOOD at Hurt, and less good at Comfort. So. There's that.

On a sidenote, one of those was wing!fic that I actually really enjoyed. The character's wings were moulting which made him moody and crabby and unable to explain why to his mystified boyfriends. It was great.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I called and emailed my volunteering people again yesterday, as a sort of 'last chance' thing, and I mostly expected no-one to answer so I could just get on with things. The call went to voicemail, as all my calls there do, but I did get a reply to the email about 4 hours after I sent it. Telling me I could come in Tuesday or Thursday if I wanted. Tuesday was a little short notice, and I'm having a haircut on Thursday, so it's out anyway. But. Now it's like I actually have to inform them it was just a polite email, I don't really want to come in anymore.

I emailed the guy back today to say I couldn't come in this week, but I would like to talk to him in the office at some point. He said he was in the office on Friday, then off again next week (??), then back in the last week of October. It's like, I do want to explain that they're doing great work with their organisation and everything, but I'm not really enjoy the lack of organisation and being constantly left hanging so that's why I'm going. But I don't really want to say it in an email, since the entire office gets those, and I don't want to do it over the phone, especially when I can never get through when I actually feel geared up to do it. So I've got to make a whole trip into the office to have a conversation about how I don't want to come into the office anymore, and if I don't do it on Friday, I have to wait till the end of October to get it really sorted out.

Also on Friday Dragon Age: Inquisition comes out, whether or not I actually start playing it then depends on if I can get my hands on the edition I want, but chances are good I will be incognito from that day forwards for a bit. And I really won't want to be in Wakefield explaining to a charity man than his volunteering gig is shit.

Anyway. In Emmerdale news, Priya's boyfriend is almost unbearably attractive, and I really hope they don't make him evil. They've been doing a pretty good job of that so far. Please don't make him another abusive POC, please please please. Also Priya is pretty crazy attractive too, I would say they should have kids but they already have one each, and I don't know if the world could bear it.

A fandom thing: When you read a fic and it so completely wastes all the potential of its premise that it makes you slightly sad for the entire pairing.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I'm tired I'm so tired all the time. I think the earlier mornings are starting to get to me. Either that are just doing stuff for 2 more hours of the day is a little exhausting. Or I've just been staring at screens too much lately, writing and reading fic and whatnot. I could always stare at screens before without being so tired though. I have been falling asleep a lot quicker when I do go to bed though, which is nice. And having mornings and breakfast is pretty good too. I just hope my body adjusts to the new schedule a little faster.

I've been reading an amazing fic and it was 80,000 words and I read it in about a week, which I wasn't sure I could do anymore, what with how OCD affects my reading. But I did and it was so good but now I've finished all the chapters that have been published and it's a work in progress and I just have to WAIT for the next ones and WAIT to see if it gets finished at all, or if the author gets busy or runs into a difficult bit or wants to take her time to do the climax and just never finishes it or school gets in the way. I HOPE SHE FINISHES IT. It is so good and so well-paced. But you never know. Also it is a slow burn fic, and it's really well done and I love slow burns, but it's SO slow, like torturously slow, that I'm starting to feel like I need fic for the fic. There's a character who's just flailing and suffering and the others characters keep not noticing and not wanting to get involved, and I need someone to take care of him NOW. I could easily take a break from the fic and read fic-fic where people just discover the secret and cry and hug him, and that would be great. Except there is no fic-fic. Except one piece, but it's not about what I want it to be about (it's great that it exists though). The big reveal is coming in the actual fic I think, but. I have run out of chapters. So I have to wait.

I emailed my volunteering people to ask about coming in this week, and first I said Monday and they said they were all booked up, so I said Tuesday would be okay, and they never got back to me until I emailed them TODAY to ask if that was in fact okay and I should come in. Also I asked them about an event this week that had been scheduled for months, and they were just like 'yeah, no, it's been postponed'. So. I'm going in tomorrow. But it's getting harder and harder to be enthused about it.

Also my sister is apparently engaged to her partner. Which. Well. Good for them. I guess. I don't think it's good for them. I think it's bad for them. But it's what they're doing apparently. He asked her on her birthday. And she has a ring.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
That fic I was talking about.

Title: People Management
Fandom: Guardians of the Galaxy (movieverse)
Pairing: Peter + Yondu
Warnings: Mentions of underage stuff, grooming, violence.
Disclaimer: I don't own them and am not making any money off them.
Summary: Yondu is a good Captain (pre-movie, when Peter's about 13/14)

People Management )
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I also wrote Guardians of the Galaxy fic, for a kink meme fill. It's not in any way kinky, but still.

Son )
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
I wrote Franklin and Bash fairytale fic.

Let's see if I remember how to do this.

Title: Peter and Jared
Fandom: Franklin and Bash
Pairing: Peter and Jared are very in love
Warnings: TW for mentions of cannibalism, I sort of freaked myself out a little writing that. Also for death, I guess.
Disclaimer: I don't own them and I'm not making any money off them
Notes: I haven't watched the show in forever, I'M SORRY IF EITHER OF THEM ARE OOC

Peter and Jared )

Literally just as I finished writing this, I realised I'd missed out on the opportunity to use the famous fairytale about two characters who spend most of their time hanging out with a bear. Oh well.
girlofprey: (Heroes Sylar Go Swallow a Knife)
The best part about researching the ENTIRE WORLD of a game/show you like, as I am doing currently, is when you find out things that wildly change your entire outlook on the game. For me right now it's Dragon Age, and I just found out that it is literally canon that Alistair was 20 years old during the events of Origins. I had a feeling the characters were younger than I assumed they were, since Morrigan is voiced by Claudia Black, who is definitely not a teenager, but is constantly referred to as 'girl'. But wow. 20. Which sort of implies they aimed for the Warden to be younger than I was assuming, to be of a like age - and which s/he'll kind of have to be for a lot of her relationship with Alistair/Morrigan/etc to still make that same peer-to-peer sense. Huh. 20.

I also I found out about things like the Murder Knife. Which I'm pretty sure I have used a few times without realising it. Better get used to that being canon too.

Coronation Street )

The other week, when the volunteering dudes disappeared again, I went to see Belle because I figured it wouldn't be out at the cinema for much longer, and I could go see 3 Days To Kill - a spy action film starring Kevin Costner - another time. But now 3 Days To Kill has gone out of the cinemas while Belle was on for an extra week, lasjdkasljl.
girlofprey: (Feel Like Harry Potter Before Hogwarts ()
Our Sky box is playing up, and we can't get it fixed without paying £40-£60 for an engineer callout. So my dad is planning to cancel Sky altogether and just get Freeview, for £7 a month instead of £67. It's a pretty good deal, obviously, but mostly I'm annoyed because I was getting into The Secret Circle, and it's only available on Sky Living. It's not on any other channel, or any On Demand service, and they never put out DVDs and it isn't on Netflix. I can't even find terrible knock-off DVDs on ebay. I've never missed Megaupload so keenly as I do in this moment.

I mean, the show's kind of bad in a lot of ways and I'm mostly in it for Sad Roy Earle and to see how they changed it from the books. But. I LOVED IT.

So. That's annoying.

Also I found out that the hardest part about writing a long-ass fic in a faux-historical universe in when you realise you don't know shit about designing medieval crowns.

I'm going volunteering tomorrow, for the first time since that time they all disappeared. Hopefully they'll be there tomorrow. Who knows?

And the no handwashing homework is going better than I thought it would while also being pretty damn difficult. But oh well.

It's the end of June. Half the year is over with. I honestly cannot believe that.
girlofprey: (R for raygun)
Today I watched a documentary about London where the host talked about a gay brothel that was there in the 18th century, and the account given of it by an undercover police officer at the time. Who apparently had to go back several weeks in a row to "gather evidence". So what I want to know is: where is all the historical undercover-in-a-gay-bar fic?

Also I learned that lots of silver is terrifying. IT IS JUST SHINY AND THE SAME COLOUR SO YOU CAN'T SEE WHERE ONE PIECE ENDS AND ANOTHER BEGINS. Suddenly I know how to decorate a terrifying fairy lair should I ever write and/or film one.

I downloaded Minecraft today, after learning that it was finally available for the PS3 online. It now has every chance to impress me as all the Let's Plays suggest it should. Actually I've already played a couple of hours of it, and it is pretty good. I like the fact you can tame wolves and have them follow you around and help you. And also ocelots? I didn't manage to tame the ocelots though.

Meanwhile in Skyrim I finally get to have adventures with a hot Orc lady. Yusssss.

Oh and I had an actual look at the PS4 in a games shop today. It seems pretty cool, and smaller than I was expecting, but the only game I was interested in turned out to be a Playstation Store game that doesn't come in a bundle, and which I can get for the PS3. So that £400 price tag continues to be off-putting.
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  • I spent most of today and yesterday at work checking two forty-page documents to make sure the text was exactly or mostly straight because the printers are a bit funny, and the documents were going out into the public domain. Pity me.


  • It's quite sad that there don't seem to be any L.A. Confidential "Holding Out For A Hero" vids. Since that's blatantly what Exley was doing. Hmph.


  • Suburban Shootout fic though, woo!


  • And today on Emmerdale, Carl King went mad with power. Matt was only slightly turned on.


  • I can't believe no-one ever told me about Evil Dead: The Stage Version before. Dude. Mostly I think it would be worth it just for "All The Men In My Life Keep Getting Killed By Candarian Demons".


  • People still really aren't writing enough Aaron/Logan slash. Damn them.
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Work talk )

So...I'm knackered. I keep doing that thing of going to bed at 12 and half past when I have to get up at 7, and I'm just tired all the time now. Mostly I blame Peter and Sylar. Though I've mostly calmed down about them now a bit. Apparently someone is writing a book about Heroes, and it's probably one of those theory/philosophical books that make me quite happy, but also make me laugh. Hmm. I hope the show doesn't go the bizarre merchandising route. I'd like to read the graphic novels that are floating around somewhere, though.

Anyway! Despite the tired, I will be going out in about an hour to the launch party of Harry Potter, aiming to get my copy at midnight. This is a very strange position to be in when you've just seen the fifth film, then finished the second book, and read the sixth book about two years ago. I love Percy Weasley a bit, and it's quite bad that I don't know any canon for him since book 2 besides Spoilers? ), and won't till after I know what happens to him now. But anyway. I have food and ice-cream, and am sort of planning to not leave the flat all weekend. Except for the part where I need to do washing and shopping and stuff. I'd like to get it finished before Monday, really. So I don't have to have that 7-hour gap. But we shall see.

Vague thoughts, possibly vague spoilers of the vaguest kind )

Until then, someone appears to have written a Sawyer/Sayid fic where they're espionage agents. Hurrah. And possibly hunting down Peter/Sylar fic. Like I need more.

And yeah, LJ continue to be complete wankers, slightly. I'm not sure what the Miller test is, but I believe people when they suggest I ought to laugh about it. Mostly I can't load the Lj-biz page because there are too many comments. Woe. Possibly I shouldn't have bothered wanting to renew my paid account, or getting the extra userpics. Or maybe I should be enjoying them while I can.
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